Back to work.....ugh..
Well I've spent the past 3 days with Jesse it was ok but it seems like we just spent alot of time arguing.. Sunday we show up in Barstow to get his trailer so we can move it to Palm Springs and I go into the trailer to help him pack stuff up and low and behold the blanket that said Justin and Brandi was on his couch like the first time I went out to his trailer when we first got together and I go into his bedroom and there is a picture of him and her above his bed. that he told me he gave back to her along time ago. So if your gonna tell me that I'm the only person you've been with in the past 4 months then your lying to me.. especially if 2 pairs of her pants are there. And if you tell me you love me you better mean it and not play with my emotions. So yesterday he left his wallet home and I went through it and she's nothing like I thought she would be. I saw 3 pics of her he carries in his wallet. Why can't he just be faithful and honest to me I should of known better but now my emotions are involved and it makes it harder to walk away I just don't know anymore I love him I just can't take the breaking up bullshit. you know what they say if you let something go and it comes back to you it's yours? well why does he keep on coming back to me if he's not fully mine?