be still my heart
So these past 5 days have birthed quite the unexpected twist of events. It's always a little alarming when you're dating about 3 or 4 people casually, and then one day you wake up and realize you've been seeing only one of them, on an everyday basis.
What happened to the other ones, and why have I been ignoring their calls? Does this mean I really like this person, or is he just better than everyone else and I'm choosing favorites? I don't know really...but honestly, I don't think about the other dudes that much anymore.
It's somewhat unnerving, cause my whole plan was to date around. I know it's the same with him too. So that's a little odd. But it's funny, because we always end up hanging out, because we want to, but also a big part of myself is nagging me to call the other guys, and make plans with them instead, just to keep my options open, not really cause I want to. But I figure rather than focusing so much on what I should do, I should just focus on what I want to do. If we wanna hang out, fine, hang out. Stop worrying about what it means/doesn't mean/etc.
I'm not really worried about it, but I definitely don't feel comfortable lumping him in the "guys I'm dating" catagory..because I feel that everyone else pales in comparison. I definitely didn't think I'd become this into someone. But it's the first time I haven't felt that something was missing. At least for now. He could be hiding an inner circus freak, we've only been dating for a week or two now. We talked about this though, and it's looking like it's pretty mutual. Mutualness (mutuality?) is always good.
So yeah...I'm happy with our status now, and I'd rather focus in on the now, and not worry about what happens in the future...but nonetheless, it's a great feeling to feel super excited about someone, and know that they're super excited about you too.
What happened to the other ones, and why have I been ignoring their calls? Does this mean I really like this person, or is he just better than everyone else and I'm choosing favorites? I don't know really...but honestly, I don't think about the other dudes that much anymore.
It's somewhat unnerving, cause my whole plan was to date around. I know it's the same with him too. So that's a little odd. But it's funny, because we always end up hanging out, because we want to, but also a big part of myself is nagging me to call the other guys, and make plans with them instead, just to keep my options open, not really cause I want to. But I figure rather than focusing so much on what I should do, I should just focus on what I want to do. If we wanna hang out, fine, hang out. Stop worrying about what it means/doesn't mean/etc.
I'm not really worried about it, but I definitely don't feel comfortable lumping him in the "guys I'm dating" catagory..because I feel that everyone else pales in comparison. I definitely didn't think I'd become this into someone. But it's the first time I haven't felt that something was missing. At least for now. He could be hiding an inner circus freak, we've only been dating for a week or two now. We talked about this though, and it's looking like it's pretty mutual. Mutualness (mutuality?) is always good.
So yeah...I'm happy with our status now, and I'd rather focus in on the now, and not worry about what happens in the future...but nonetheless, it's a great feeling to feel super excited about someone, and know that they're super excited about you too.