Excitement and dissapointment
So on a whim I looked at my livejournal that has become forgotten in the shadow of myspace and facebook. As I looked at my last entry I was shocked to find that my goal and things I "looked forward" to in 2007 have changed so much. Well I'm 17 now and I don't feel any different. I didn't have a huge party, the family didn't make a huge deal over it, and life just went on as normal. I still don't realize sometimes that I'm 17. I know that I'm not 16 and not yet 18. It seems that's all 17 is. It's like limbo. Not the hell of 16 but not the heaven of 18. You are glad to be free of the immaturity that comes with being 16. Glad that you no longer have to experiance the "newness" of 16 and all that comes with being 16. Yet at the same time you aren't able to have the maturity of 18. You don't have all of the experiance that comes or is supposed to come with being 18. And you sure as hell don't have the respect that generally comes with the age of 18.
As far as being a senior, taking the test, and sending the applications I am not by any means welcoming them. I am excited about the end result but as far as the whole process I am scared out of my mind. I have no idea where I want to go to school nor do I know how I am going to figure that out. It becomes more and more clear to me how much money it's going to cost for me to go to a decent college.
My summer of 2007 has gone like this: I went to Italy and it was great! Paris was better as far as sights and things of that nature. I did however meet a really cool guy over there though. He lives on the base where my Aunt works. He is also a rising senoir. We are now myspace penpals so it's pretty sweet. Then I came home and left again for GHP. GHP is fucking amazing!!! I love it so much! I wouldn't trade being a Commie for the world. I would sit here and write about the wonderfull people that I have met but that is for another entry.
Since I mentioned boys I'll go ahead and say that my three year anniversary will not be happening and I think looking back that that is a good thing. I think that we were in a way holding each other back. So now we have gone our seperate ways and haven't talked since May I beleive. I hoped that we would keep it touch and maybe we will but it doesn't look like it's turning out that way. I still wish him the best though and hope everything is going well for him.
As for me I have fallen victim to the summer romance and you know I don't think that is such a bad thing. I have no idea where it's headed and frankly I don't want to know. I'm jsut taking it day by day and enjoying every second of it. If it works it works and if it doesn't then oh well at least I had a good time. Right now I don't want to think about the future I'm just taking in the present and that seems to be working out pretty well if I do say so myself.
As far as being a senior, taking the test, and sending the applications I am not by any means welcoming them. I am excited about the end result but as far as the whole process I am scared out of my mind. I have no idea where I want to go to school nor do I know how I am going to figure that out. It becomes more and more clear to me how much money it's going to cost for me to go to a decent college.
My summer of 2007 has gone like this: I went to Italy and it was great! Paris was better as far as sights and things of that nature. I did however meet a really cool guy over there though. He lives on the base where my Aunt works. He is also a rising senoir. We are now myspace penpals so it's pretty sweet. Then I came home and left again for GHP. GHP is fucking amazing!!! I love it so much! I wouldn't trade being a Commie for the world. I would sit here and write about the wonderfull people that I have met but that is for another entry.
Since I mentioned boys I'll go ahead and say that my three year anniversary will not be happening and I think looking back that that is a good thing. I think that we were in a way holding each other back. So now we have gone our seperate ways and haven't talked since May I beleive. I hoped that we would keep it touch and maybe we will but it doesn't look like it's turning out that way. I still wish him the best though and hope everything is going well for him.
As for me I have fallen victim to the summer romance and you know I don't think that is such a bad thing. I have no idea where it's headed and frankly I don't want to know. I'm jsut taking it day by day and enjoying every second of it. If it works it works and if it doesn't then oh well at least I had a good time. Right now I don't want to think about the future I'm just taking in the present and that seems to be working out pretty well if I do say so myself.