Thoughts..

[mideanfaith]

Its funny how sometimes what feels so right to you is so wrong to the world.. how what your whole body and soul are screaming dont let go of.. is killing you..slowly..like a slow acting poison.. not even the painless kind.. you know your dying.. and yet.. nothing in you can stop it.. that I believe is a trait that is only found in man.. we are the only creature that will do something over and over even though it always ends the same.. just shows how badly insanity is rooted in all people..becuase that is the definition.. doing the same thing over and over.. and expecting different results.. yet there is that compelling call deep somewhere in us that pushes us forward.. one more time.. this time it will work.. one more time.. its gonna be different.. one more time.. I am a different person.. but it is insanity.. its always the same.. and always ends the same.. we chose our poisons so well dont we.. some smoke.. others drink.. well me.. I love.. and that is my poison.. I love myself to death..lol.. there is only so much you can give of yourself before you are giving the negative too.. its at that point you know you truly love someone.. when you dont care what it is of yourself you give..becuase you dont ask or question.. you just give yourself.. like a trusting child.. its then you are broken so badly.. but in a rare instance.. its then you find something so few people understand.. unconditional love.. I understand it.. I know it.. I am it.. and its not easy.. or even fun sometimes.. but.. I wouldnt chose any other me to be..

Not sure where this all came from.. hope didnt freak you all out..lol

Here is a poem for thought..one I wrote recently..

Fire engulfs me as if empowered

From a love that has me devoured

I am but ashes yet I burn

Nothing left to want, yet I yearn

Broken by my eternal love

For which I am not good enough

I still walk and search for more

Bleeding but not sure what for

When was I cut, whats left to bleed

Why do I feel this is something I need

The world revolves another turn

Each rotation I continue to burn

How is this fire so eternal

Turning my very soul into an inferno

How can one so hot resonate cold

And one so few in years, be so old

I can not deny my hearts desire

So until I have them, I live with the fire

Loving the Burn,
Kittie