Losing it.
I'm losing it. Someone in my position should feel elated, excited, maybe a little anxious. Not how I feel.... sad? Lonely? And I haven't even left yet.
I hope to god it's just a 'comming to the end of a chapter' nostalgia feeling I'm experiencing. A temporary thing. Like when I moved out of my basement suite a couple weeks ago, I was super emotional about it. My little space that I had made into my own and called a home for the past year. But now the thought of going back and living there is not appealing to me at all. I don't miss it.
Today the thing that spurred this emotion was going into work to pick up my grats from the weddings I worked. Probably the last time I'll ever go in there. Sort of said goodbye to some people, but not really. No one seems to care, aside from a few.
I just want to cry.
I hope to god it's just a 'comming to the end of a chapter' nostalgia feeling I'm experiencing. A temporary thing. Like when I moved out of my basement suite a couple weeks ago, I was super emotional about it. My little space that I had made into my own and called a home for the past year. But now the thought of going back and living there is not appealing to me at all. I don't miss it.
Today the thing that spurred this emotion was going into work to pick up my grats from the weddings I worked. Probably the last time I'll ever go in there. Sort of said goodbye to some people, but not really. No one seems to care, aside from a few.
I just want to cry.