i really should stop swearing so much
this is pissing me off. to call or not to call, that is the question. if i dont call, then she will eventually call me, to tell me what a jerk i am. if i do call, then i am deluding myself and leading her on, because i know, (and she probably does to) that this is stupid, we know almost nothing about each other and have nothing in common, and plus she goes to pres, and i swore id never go out with prez girls again. but she is quite good looking, and for the first time since 8th grade, a girl i might have a chance with who is not asian. dont get me wrong, i love asian girls. i love them so much, that none of them at prez will go out with me anymore(as far as i know). but its time for a change (plus the fact that i always messed up with the asians, the only real girlfriend i ever had was white, and even that was crappy). and plus i havent slept in the last week at all, which makes decision making much harder, so if i mess up, its not my fault, but my lack of sleep.