today was a complete waste of time

[middlechakra]

today was shit
one of those days where im just tired of being upset
so i use what dignity i have
swallow my tears
i try to get shit done
but with every passing glance and every thoughtless word
tears float to my eyes
i try to suck them back down

in this fucking life man theres no one
all this fucking shit
what does it matter if i look good
if i dont feel good then whats the point
if my outward apearance changes why would that make a difference
why does it make a difference
i dont change
i'll always suck
theres not a soul that knows me
theres never anyone who will
i want to fill this empty spot i have
but thats gone now

people suck thats all really
you mutha fuckas you fucking suck
what did i ever do ay???
what did i fucking do other that try to be nice and avoid conflict
bastards