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Ok, so I'm really sorry about my depression update from the other day. I was having a REALLY bad day and I was letting everything bother me. Yesterday wasn't going to well either. I had to sign up for my dorm room for next year and it did not work out as I had planned. I was planning on getting an empty double room and then have athletics put an athlete in with me. I didn't even mind if it was a freshman. I realize that most of you don't understand why I want to be with an athlete, but when you get up really early every day and work your ass off all day, you require a certain amount of sleep and therefore a certain amount of quiet. I figure if I room with someone that is not an athlete, they are more likely to stay up till 4 in the morning and party and be loud and such like normal college kids do. Anyway, I went to sign up and there were NO empty double rooms left in Ellicot (the huge complex that I have to live in). I ended up getting into a split triple. Me being in with someone else in the double and then there is a single connected. So pretty much I'm with 2 non-athletes. I'm REALLY scared.
I went and talked to this lady Sharon in Athletics at UB and we ended up chatting for over an hour. There is pretty much nothing she can do to help me. She tried to make me feel better about it. Pretty much her thing is "when life throws you lemons, make lemonade". By the end I didn't feel quite as bad and she made me realize that I have the greatest friends in the world and I don't lean on you guys enough. I isolate myself instead of using my friends for help. I love you guys and I want you all to know that I value your friendships SOOOOOO much.
If I was with you all right now, I would totally suggest a big group hug. lol. You guys don't have to worry about me anymore, I'm doing better. I'm trying to have a better outlook on life. I need to stop looking at everything negatively. Once I am better at being positive, I think everything will make me a lot happier.
I went and talked to this lady Sharon in Athletics at UB and we ended up chatting for over an hour. There is pretty much nothing she can do to help me. She tried to make me feel better about it. Pretty much her thing is "when life throws you lemons, make lemonade". By the end I didn't feel quite as bad and she made me realize that I have the greatest friends in the world and I don't lean on you guys enough. I isolate myself instead of using my friends for help. I love you guys and I want you all to know that I value your friendships SOOOOOO much.
If I was with you all right now, I would totally suggest a big group hug. lol. You guys don't have to worry about me anymore, I'm doing better. I'm trying to have a better outlook on life. I need to stop looking at everything negatively. Once I am better at being positive, I think everything will make me a lot happier.