F.T.W.

[midaskys]

so. i had a horrible afternoon. i really dont know whats going on in my head. or with the world. but all is not well right now. my dads under the impression i should come home. my mom wont give me my car as long as im not living in her house. i havnt found a job, and i still dont know whats going on with this head light shit. i dont wanna go home. that just proves every one right. that i am not capable of handling myself or making it on my own. and i am. but its hard to find a job when you have no car. im very home sick right now. but i cant go back because i dont know which ones of my friends are actually friends, or not true friends. at least here i know theres 3 people that care for me. i know im not a failure. but its hard to swallow when thats all you have heard since you started high school. im stressed and really lonly right now. i wish some one was here just to hold me. as dumb as it sounds or "gay" as it sounds. and to top it all off, i cant sleep and i think i might be having to serve some kind of jail time for this ticket. that will look great on my record that isnt fucked up enough as it is.

i dont know if my parents will help me. i know they love me, but they have a weird way of showing it. im just lonly