Keep the dream alive
Wow, life has been really busy lately. Sorry I've been shunning my journal. I spent most of the summer trying desperately to forget that school was coming, which included not writing a THING, including my 60-ish page thesis that's due in November. ^^;
My 21st birthday was a great time, for the most part, at least. I had a great dinner with my friends, and we had the nicest waiter in the world. Then we took pictures outside of the restaurant, mostly of me molesting my friends. XD After that, we went to Dave & Buster's. mei_yanohi and writhe_in_pain had a great time shooting zombies, and virginia_plaine and I made it our mission to get smashed. After what equaled about 11 shots I finally got there. I was told that I was hilarious, though I have few memories to confirm this. Also, mei_yanohi got me the loveliest necklace EVAR.
This, of course, was the fun part. The not so fun part was the five hours of tequila-induced vomiting afterward. Apparently there is a memo sent out when people turn 21 warning them that tequila is the alcohol of regret. Also, I am apparently the only person on earth who did not receive this memo. But rest assured that I am now VERY clear on the matter.
So, school started, and while I'm not particularly thrilled about being back (I'm a senior goddammit and I'm ready to be DONE), I'm happy to note that I'm not stressing. Which is nice, considering that this semester includes a part time job, the aforementioned 60-ish page thesis, high level Latin, in-depth Sociology, two study group commitments, and an hour commute each way, among other things.
Oh, in better news, writhe_in_pain and I have finally set a wedding date! It's Aug 22, 2010. Yes, it's a long way away, but at least we finally set the damn thing. We've been engaged for five years, after all. XD But now I am filled with stress about the wedding. I mean, I plan to have a super-cheap, low-key, no-fuss type wedding, but there are still so many more details than I ever imagined. Renting facilities, bouquet types (what the fuck is a nosegay?), guest lists, and overpriced photographers, are all giving me a nervous breakdown. I am too non-traditional to deal with all this detailed craziness. We've already eliminated traditional things like the wedding party, a custom cake, a church, a reception hall (hello metroparks!), lots of flowers, a huge dinner (we're having a buffet from Amar India and everyone will deal), a huge guest list (20 people max), as well as most of the weird misogynist traditions. But that still leaves WAAAAAY more than I want to deal with. I was never that kid that dreamed about a wedding, and I just have no idea how to do this stuff.
But the important part is that I am crazy in love and thrilled with the prospect of spending my life with this amazing person. He's everything I ever wanted, and I'm getting married because of him, not because of some dream of marriage. I don't want to marry; I want to marry him. And no matter how crazy things get, I will not forget that.
I guess the big thing that I'm feeling is a sudden feeling of urgency about growing up. In just a few weeks I went from playing Pokemon all day to worrying about grad school and GRE's and housing and marriage. I just want the time for all this to come already so I can stop worrying!
Wow, epic post! This is what happens when I forget to post for a long time.
My 21st birthday was a great time, for the most part, at least. I had a great dinner with my friends, and we had the nicest waiter in the world. Then we took pictures outside of the restaurant, mostly of me molesting my friends. XD After that, we went to Dave & Buster's. mei_yanohi and writhe_in_pain had a great time shooting zombies, and virginia_plaine and I made it our mission to get smashed. After what equaled about 11 shots I finally got there. I was told that I was hilarious, though I have few memories to confirm this. Also, mei_yanohi got me the loveliest necklace EVAR.
This, of course, was the fun part. The not so fun part was the five hours of tequila-induced vomiting afterward. Apparently there is a memo sent out when people turn 21 warning them that tequila is the alcohol of regret. Also, I am apparently the only person on earth who did not receive this memo. But rest assured that I am now VERY clear on the matter.
So, school started, and while I'm not particularly thrilled about being back (I'm a senior goddammit and I'm ready to be DONE), I'm happy to note that I'm not stressing. Which is nice, considering that this semester includes a part time job, the aforementioned 60-ish page thesis, high level Latin, in-depth Sociology, two study group commitments, and an hour commute each way, among other things.
Oh, in better news, writhe_in_pain and I have finally set a wedding date! It's Aug 22, 2010. Yes, it's a long way away, but at least we finally set the damn thing. We've been engaged for five years, after all. XD But now I am filled with stress about the wedding. I mean, I plan to have a super-cheap, low-key, no-fuss type wedding, but there are still so many more details than I ever imagined. Renting facilities, bouquet types (what the fuck is a nosegay?), guest lists, and overpriced photographers, are all giving me a nervous breakdown. I am too non-traditional to deal with all this detailed craziness. We've already eliminated traditional things like the wedding party, a custom cake, a church, a reception hall (hello metroparks!), lots of flowers, a huge dinner (we're having a buffet from Amar India and everyone will deal), a huge guest list (20 people max), as well as most of the weird misogynist traditions. But that still leaves WAAAAAY more than I want to deal with. I was never that kid that dreamed about a wedding, and I just have no idea how to do this stuff.
But the important part is that I am crazy in love and thrilled with the prospect of spending my life with this amazing person. He's everything I ever wanted, and I'm getting married because of him, not because of some dream of marriage. I don't want to marry; I want to marry him. And no matter how crazy things get, I will not forget that.
I guess the big thing that I'm feeling is a sudden feeling of urgency about growing up. In just a few weeks I went from playing Pokemon all day to worrying about grad school and GRE's and housing and marriage. I just want the time for all this to come already so I can stop worrying!
Wow, epic post! This is what happens when I forget to post for a long time.