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Augh...journal, it's just that time again...when things start to suck in progression. I don't know if I've done something to deserve this...or, I mean, maybe shit just happens, but whatever the case, it's getting to the point that it's working on my nerves.
Now see, anyone that has had any kind of conversation with me this summer can't help but notice that I seem to be working like a slave. I mean, it's not great, but I don't have a problem with working, not at all. As long as I get paid, I don't mind coming in early, staying late, etc...but you know, it's also important to remember to spend time with the people you care about, lest they forget that you care about them to begin with.
Oddly enough, that reminds me of my father. He's a great guy, very honest, very nice, very giving...he just works a lot. And I mean, growing up with him, I could most certainly understand why he works so much, he just likes having money. I mean, it's like...yea he has enough to pay rent, bills and whatnot, but he also likes having money to spend on the side if necessary, which is completely understandable in my book. But I also remember missing him a lot. Even when I'd spend some time at his house, I had very torn feelings. On his days off I wanted to go out and have fun but at the same time I could understand him being very tired. So of course I wanted him to rest, and I still do...I just wish he didn't have to work so hard. For his own sake too...he deserves some time off, he really does.
The older I get the more I realize that I'm like my father in this aspect...but that is to say that I have to remember that there are people out there that want to hang out or whatever because they care...and crap like that
Anyway, I digress...that's not really a problem...yet. What is a problem however is the job that I'm currently with. See...last week sometime, one of my managers (who for all intensive purposes be hereby referred to as 22) had a...meeting of sorts with me about the way I was performing. Now I'll admit, that past week I really hadn't been giving my all. The amount of time I was spending at the restaurant was really starting to get to me. I just couldn't get over the fact that I had to work 4 double shifts in a row. Which is my fault...I know...but, I just can't say "no" to a shift. I mean, that's a perfectly good opportunity to make some money, right?
Anyway, the day I had the meeting, once again I'll admit I didn't give the best of service that I could've given that day. And to top it off, I was extremely irritable...so that meeting may have been called for. I didn't make a fuss or fight, i deserved that talk, it was to let me know where I was.
And today again, we had a meeting about something that happened this past saturday. Now the thing is, I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses, but I remember very vividly what happened this past saturday. See...we have these things called Secret Shoppers, and you know, they basically grade you on being a server...whatever, right? But like apparently I had a secrey shopper in my section and didn't know about it. I have a very good idea of what table it was because it was the only one I recall messing up on at all. I mean like...they didn't even look that happy when they walked in to begin with...so I figured it was one of those "this waiter better just bring me my food and leave us alone" kinda things...apparently i was wrong, I misjudged. Needless to say, this didn't reflect well on me.
My point is, this is the second time I've had to meet with my manager within the past week...that can't possibly be good, I feel like I'm on strike 2 before I even know I was up to bat. It's not that I'm a bad waiter or anything (but I can most certainly see how it would appear that way to him)...I just don't really have a good way of explaining how I managed to mess up this past week like that. It worries me a bit.
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In other news, somehow the summer has just managed to whiz by me again and school is starting next month, the 22nd of august is the first day I belive. And well...I can't say I'm off to a good start in college. I've managed to get myself on Academic Probation again...which isn't good, but I can deal with that...the problem comes in seeing if I can get money for this new semester. I'm pretty sure I have to fill out another one of those forms that essentially begs morehouse to take me back.
I also don't know what to do about this.
I mean, I figure if I only get to take 13 hours worth of classes, and I have to try to get my GPA up, I'll have to take classes that don't necessarily apply to my major, which is kind of a setback considering what department I'm in. But that's fine. I think my residual hatred for this school is starting to fade and I've got more of a "Why the fuck am I still here" kinda mentality.
From what I hear, that's important in getting out of this place in one piece.
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Also in that same vein, I dunno how I'm gonna pay rent soon, I have enough for next month or whatever, but clearly I can't work enough to pay for august if I have to goto school, right?
That's minor though, i suppose I can wait to deal with that.
And of course, I'm still hunting for a new apt.
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There are some other things that cross my mind too, but I suppose I'll have to deal with them all in due time....More to the point, I'm starting to get a headache...so I'm gonna go ahead and stop writing for now. I feel better now...I guess. Thanks Journal.
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Items of the day:
Word: Polycarbonate
Quotation: "With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion."
-Steven Weinberg
Music: Digitalism - Idealism
-Genre: Electronica, Dance, Techno
Track List:
1. "Magnets"
2. "Zdarlight"
3. "I Want I Want"
4. "Idealistic"
5. "Digitalism in Cairo"
6. "Departure From Cairo"
7. "Pogo"
8. "Moonlight"
9. "Anything New"
10. "The Pulse"
11. "Home Zone"
12. "Apollo-Gize (Final Mix)"
13. "Jupiter Approach"
14. "Jupiter Room"
15. "Echoes"
Now see, anyone that has had any kind of conversation with me this summer can't help but notice that I seem to be working like a slave. I mean, it's not great, but I don't have a problem with working, not at all. As long as I get paid, I don't mind coming in early, staying late, etc...but you know, it's also important to remember to spend time with the people you care about, lest they forget that you care about them to begin with.
Oddly enough, that reminds me of my father. He's a great guy, very honest, very nice, very giving...he just works a lot. And I mean, growing up with him, I could most certainly understand why he works so much, he just likes having money. I mean, it's like...yea he has enough to pay rent, bills and whatnot, but he also likes having money to spend on the side if necessary, which is completely understandable in my book. But I also remember missing him a lot. Even when I'd spend some time at his house, I had very torn feelings. On his days off I wanted to go out and have fun but at the same time I could understand him being very tired. So of course I wanted him to rest, and I still do...I just wish he didn't have to work so hard. For his own sake too...he deserves some time off, he really does.
The older I get the more I realize that I'm like my father in this aspect...but that is to say that I have to remember that there are people out there that want to hang out or whatever because they care...and crap like that
Anyway, I digress...that's not really a problem...yet. What is a problem however is the job that I'm currently with. See...last week sometime, one of my managers (who for all intensive purposes be hereby referred to as 22) had a...meeting of sorts with me about the way I was performing. Now I'll admit, that past week I really hadn't been giving my all. The amount of time I was spending at the restaurant was really starting to get to me. I just couldn't get over the fact that I had to work 4 double shifts in a row. Which is my fault...I know...but, I just can't say "no" to a shift. I mean, that's a perfectly good opportunity to make some money, right?
Anyway, the day I had the meeting, once again I'll admit I didn't give the best of service that I could've given that day. And to top it off, I was extremely irritable...so that meeting may have been called for. I didn't make a fuss or fight, i deserved that talk, it was to let me know where I was.
And today again, we had a meeting about something that happened this past saturday. Now the thing is, I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses, but I remember very vividly what happened this past saturday. See...we have these things called Secret Shoppers, and you know, they basically grade you on being a server...whatever, right? But like apparently I had a secrey shopper in my section and didn't know about it. I have a very good idea of what table it was because it was the only one I recall messing up on at all. I mean like...they didn't even look that happy when they walked in to begin with...so I figured it was one of those "this waiter better just bring me my food and leave us alone" kinda things...apparently i was wrong, I misjudged. Needless to say, this didn't reflect well on me.
My point is, this is the second time I've had to meet with my manager within the past week...that can't possibly be good, I feel like I'm on strike 2 before I even know I was up to bat. It's not that I'm a bad waiter or anything (but I can most certainly see how it would appear that way to him)...I just don't really have a good way of explaining how I managed to mess up this past week like that. It worries me a bit.
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In other news, somehow the summer has just managed to whiz by me again and school is starting next month, the 22nd of august is the first day I belive. And well...I can't say I'm off to a good start in college. I've managed to get myself on Academic Probation again...which isn't good, but I can deal with that...the problem comes in seeing if I can get money for this new semester. I'm pretty sure I have to fill out another one of those forms that essentially begs morehouse to take me back.
I also don't know what to do about this.
I mean, I figure if I only get to take 13 hours worth of classes, and I have to try to get my GPA up, I'll have to take classes that don't necessarily apply to my major, which is kind of a setback considering what department I'm in. But that's fine. I think my residual hatred for this school is starting to fade and I've got more of a "Why the fuck am I still here" kinda mentality.
From what I hear, that's important in getting out of this place in one piece.
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Also in that same vein, I dunno how I'm gonna pay rent soon, I have enough for next month or whatever, but clearly I can't work enough to pay for august if I have to goto school, right?
That's minor though, i suppose I can wait to deal with that.
And of course, I'm still hunting for a new apt.
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There are some other things that cross my mind too, but I suppose I'll have to deal with them all in due time....More to the point, I'm starting to get a headache...so I'm gonna go ahead and stop writing for now. I feel better now...I guess. Thanks Journal.
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Items of the day:
Word: Polycarbonate
Quotation: "With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion."
-Steven Weinberg
Music: Digitalism - Idealism
-Genre: Electronica, Dance, Techno
Track List:
1. "Magnets"
2. "Zdarlight"
3. "I Want I Want"
4. "Idealistic"
5. "Digitalism in Cairo"
6. "Departure From Cairo"
7. "Pogo"
8. "Moonlight"
9. "Anything New"
10. "The Pulse"
11. "Home Zone"
12. "Apollo-Gize (Final Mix)"
13. "Jupiter Approach"
14. "Jupiter Room"
15. "Echoes"