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This is quite a suprise. I just got off the phone with a friend of mine down in Mexico. I think before I left she thought that we were boyfriend and girlfriend which came to a suprise to me because she was 18 at the time. Right now she is 19 and has remained loyal to me since the day I left. What caught my eye, my caught my heart was how much love she has for me. I wasn't expecting this from her and I barely could remember her. I didn't think she would call me ever becauase I told her that I was going to be busy that I wasn't going to be able to talk to her for awhile. How can someone from so far away still care for a guy. I'm just amazed with her and her actions. I stopped talking to her back in july and you think by now the person would forget about you. I don't know i'm new at this because I never expected her to be this way.
How do you tell someone that loves you that you don't love them? I feel like shit now because I'm not the person who breaks hearts. I love someone else and that person knows who they are. I've been acting foolishly to everyone recently. I'm sorry and no one tell me not to appologize because I know my own actions. Why do I do this? It's because I'm trying to see how that person is going to act and seeing how long they are going to try to be with me as a friend and even as a gf. I purposely on accident analyize people. I've already seen things in almost everyone that I don't like and that I see as a problem for them in the future for them. Go ahead and tell me my problems, it isn't like I don't know about them and for some of them I do on purpose to test myself. No one knows and I think for some of you, you say you care but you yourself know that deep down. You don't because I'm not an important figure to you. Answer this anyone, do you act before reason or reason before act? As for me I reason before I act but I know that I've made mistakes. I don't know, some how I feel that i'm not the right guy for anyone anymore. There are only three people that I know that really want to be with me. I know where their hearts are for me. Those two people know who they are. I will only name one and thats jenny. The two I'll leave for anyone else to guess. I'm afriad for one because I don't know where their heart is. for me maybe or just only because they want to be with me for kicks. You may think of that someone but it isn't them. I don't know, I'm lost because of this.
Why such loyality? Why such love? Why do you care?
If you do care for me in some way then tell me by internet or by phone. Better off over the phone so that I can hear your voice. I can't go see Anya this weekend because it doesn't sound like that parents are too happy with me or something. All I know now is that I blacked out and I woke up with a bloody star on my arm with the letters prjt under it. I'm trying to guess what it stands for and I've figured out scarey answers to it. I'm not a person, there is part of me that wants to explain my pain and my idealism. Call please but don't expect a silly little boy.
Three minds as one working together to help benefit a hurt young man that wishes to be helped in some way possible. No one respects his knowledge and no one really cares for what he has to say. He can see through your dense skulls and your elaborate minds of an abyss of lies that malices every man or women you see.
Please help me organize myself
How do you tell someone that loves you that you don't love them? I feel like shit now because I'm not the person who breaks hearts. I love someone else and that person knows who they are. I've been acting foolishly to everyone recently. I'm sorry and no one tell me not to appologize because I know my own actions. Why do I do this? It's because I'm trying to see how that person is going to act and seeing how long they are going to try to be with me as a friend and even as a gf. I purposely on accident analyize people. I've already seen things in almost everyone that I don't like and that I see as a problem for them in the future for them. Go ahead and tell me my problems, it isn't like I don't know about them and for some of them I do on purpose to test myself. No one knows and I think for some of you, you say you care but you yourself know that deep down. You don't because I'm not an important figure to you. Answer this anyone, do you act before reason or reason before act? As for me I reason before I act but I know that I've made mistakes. I don't know, some how I feel that i'm not the right guy for anyone anymore. There are only three people that I know that really want to be with me. I know where their hearts are for me. Those two people know who they are. I will only name one and thats jenny. The two I'll leave for anyone else to guess. I'm afriad for one because I don't know where their heart is. for me maybe or just only because they want to be with me for kicks. You may think of that someone but it isn't them. I don't know, I'm lost because of this.
Why such loyality? Why such love? Why do you care?
If you do care for me in some way then tell me by internet or by phone. Better off over the phone so that I can hear your voice. I can't go see Anya this weekend because it doesn't sound like that parents are too happy with me or something. All I know now is that I blacked out and I woke up with a bloody star on my arm with the letters prjt under it. I'm trying to guess what it stands for and I've figured out scarey answers to it. I'm not a person, there is part of me that wants to explain my pain and my idealism. Call please but don't expect a silly little boy.
Three minds as one working together to help benefit a hurt young man that wishes to be helped in some way possible. No one respects his knowledge and no one really cares for what he has to say. He can see through your dense skulls and your elaborate minds of an abyss of lies that malices every man or women you see.
Please help me organize myself