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[micolin]

alot to update... I can say it is possible for me to love.... or just be used and love the user....as long as it is consistent attention.... I am dancing now to fix my car I broke on my way to buffalo... the job sucks and it is not me but I need to fix it abd buy a new car.....badly so I will do what I need to do.... I stayed in the hospital with this guy I met at the club last night for 3 hrs... all he wanted me to do was hold his hand....he had to have his stomach pumped and a rectal exam... man I can't believe I stayed there w/ him... but if I was in his shoes I would want someone to do that for me... and would hope there wasa another person out there who would do that for me.... then I took him home got into bed at 7 in the evening had to be at work at 8 but it is a club it does not make any differenve what days I come in and which ones I don't..... helping sarah move....adn hanging out w/ friends... still not been loved in a long time.... sometimes I feel soo alone.... like I am in a little box people shake around when they want a little pleaseure adn of course my pain is somoene elses pleasure.... all I want is to see the light again... to be loved again but oh well ahit happens
right?
love always
langly