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Its hard to forgive you
But I try because I love you
Which somehow makes forgiving that much harder
So I try my best not to think about it
Loving you without the consequences in mind
But I don't like knowing my fate is in your hands
And I can do nothing to make you:
understand my place of no control,
or to love me enough to stay no matter what has befallen me,
because you know I would
or to even make you just grow up, as you said
And now the more I feel that I love you, the more I feel hurt stop me in my tracks
And I know I can do nothing, so I shrug it off
But fear, confusion and anger still leave me cold some moments when they hit.
Sometimes I want to fucking kill you for what you said
Sometimes I just want to simply find a way to have you show me the love you have and that everything might be ok
Maybe you'd change your mind
Maybe you would have never felt that way at all if I'd been more understanding all those times we argued
Been more patient all those times you were too busy to talk
I wish I could tell if you meant it when you said you were sorry
Because I know my emotions piss you off
But your constant need for the most logical and easiest route for yourself
leaves me in the dark
And I still don’t know if you even care about it
Because I guess you don’t know how to show it
Thats what you said, anyway.
But I swear you used to
I can tell you want nothing to do with the past
But you’re not the one who was deeply hurt
But I can’t stop the pain when I have no resolution
And with no resolution to be found
You’re love will have to fix what pain you’re lack there of caused.
But as always, I love you.
But I try because I love you
Which somehow makes forgiving that much harder
So I try my best not to think about it
Loving you without the consequences in mind
But I don't like knowing my fate is in your hands
And I can do nothing to make you:
understand my place of no control,
or to love me enough to stay no matter what has befallen me,
because you know I would
or to even make you just grow up, as you said
And now the more I feel that I love you, the more I feel hurt stop me in my tracks
And I know I can do nothing, so I shrug it off
But fear, confusion and anger still leave me cold some moments when they hit.
Sometimes I want to fucking kill you for what you said
Sometimes I just want to simply find a way to have you show me the love you have and that everything might be ok
Maybe you'd change your mind
Maybe you would have never felt that way at all if I'd been more understanding all those times we argued
Been more patient all those times you were too busy to talk
I wish I could tell if you meant it when you said you were sorry
Because I know my emotions piss you off
But your constant need for the most logical and easiest route for yourself
leaves me in the dark
And I still don’t know if you even care about it
Because I guess you don’t know how to show it
Thats what you said, anyway.
But I swear you used to
I can tell you want nothing to do with the past
But you’re not the one who was deeply hurt
But I can’t stop the pain when I have no resolution
And with no resolution to be found
You’re love will have to fix what pain you’re lack there of caused.
But as always, I love you.