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this is a comment i just posted on caths entry
Life is complicating and i do and dont know what you are going through, with brad there was more of a reason, but not really a reason at all. But i do know that if we spent our lives worrying about when something good was going to end we would never treasure those moments that truly were meant to be. Everything has a purpose and it may not always be one we choose to like but at the end of the day its all about learning and growing, and although when we are in pain we automatically think negative there is a positive at the end of the road but to get to that positive cath you have to try as hard as you can to find it, you have to search the world and yourself and one day, maybe not just yet but one day you will find it. I must be honest i didnt think i would ever find a positive but then i look at pete and geoff, my car, my frinds, my family, at where i am, at what im doing and especially my moodle and they are my positives, im a stronger, wiser and better person becuase of brad and although i will never ever stop loving him and i cry because sometimes i cant even remember those truly special moments, i have let go of the anger and negatives..... Time it will take, strength you will need but love you will find again... and i for one love you cath xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
And it was a bit of a wake up call, after all this time i realise that although its true i will never ever love again they way i love brad, he taught me soo much and i will always be thankful for that, id give anything to see him, hold him and kiss him again, just for 1 miniute in time, the world would go by and mine would stop, but i always know if that ever happened i would want answers and that would only drag me back under although id kills me to say this "cries" it is perhaps the best thing if i never see or contact brad again........
Life is complicating and i do and dont know what you are going through, with brad there was more of a reason, but not really a reason at all. But i do know that if we spent our lives worrying about when something good was going to end we would never treasure those moments that truly were meant to be. Everything has a purpose and it may not always be one we choose to like but at the end of the day its all about learning and growing, and although when we are in pain we automatically think negative there is a positive at the end of the road but to get to that positive cath you have to try as hard as you can to find it, you have to search the world and yourself and one day, maybe not just yet but one day you will find it. I must be honest i didnt think i would ever find a positive but then i look at pete and geoff, my car, my frinds, my family, at where i am, at what im doing and especially my moodle and they are my positives, im a stronger, wiser and better person becuase of brad and although i will never ever stop loving him and i cry because sometimes i cant even remember those truly special moments, i have let go of the anger and negatives..... Time it will take, strength you will need but love you will find again... and i for one love you cath xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
And it was a bit of a wake up call, after all this time i realise that although its true i will never ever love again they way i love brad, he taught me soo much and i will always be thankful for that, id give anything to see him, hold him and kiss him again, just for 1 miniute in time, the world would go by and mine would stop, but i always know if that ever happened i would want answers and that would only drag me back under although id kills me to say this "cries" it is perhaps the best thing if i never see or contact brad again........