my obsession

[mickeyla]

I tend to have an obsession with guys that I get extremely close to. Either emotionally or sexually. And I can't stand it. I wish I could find someone to love, and get booty from at the same time. Because the only one that I've found lately kinda sucks. Like, I know he's messin' around with other girls too, and he'd never want to actually have a relationship because he doesn't like the long distance thing. And with him leaving for the Navy... It just seems to really suck. I keep having feelings about him too, which is what really sucks. I don't really know what to do about him. I sent him a message on myspace telling him that i just can't do anything else with him sexually because I get too attached to him and i know thats not what he wants to deal with. so.. all i can do is give up on loving him since there's no way that we'll actually be together, as in an actual couple.
I just need to find me a good guy. Who'll be there for me, and love me, and be awesome. If anyone knows anyone like that, have him call me