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don't you hate feeling left out? betrayed? lost in the world? i know you all know what i'm talking about. don't you just hate thinking that everyone is happy with their friends and the things they do? when really everyone is a bitch.
i don't know what anybody knows, but i'm getting pissy again. not outwardly, but inwardly. the only people that know i'm pissy are atong, and sarah prolly. so here's whats going on:
tara and patrick are talking again, which is good for them. but she's still not talking to me. so i don't understand why she can apologize to patrick for all the shit thats happened when he's the one that called her a bitch and a slut, and i didn't do anything and she's still not talking to me. so i don't understand that one. I saw them together this morning, and that's fine, but i know both of them saw me and neither of them smiled or seemed to give any hint that i exist. I don't like the fact that patrick can look straight at me, know i see him, and just be like... whatever. And now Tory will look at me, and not say anything. i don't understand that at all. I didn't do anything to him. he's just being awkward, but that's nothing new for tory i guess. but so it seems to me that i'm loosing friendships with the people i spent all my time with for two months. i feel like i'm being pushed away by everyone i know. i don't know why. it seems like the only people i'm still friends with are mike, atong and sarah. and mike and sarah might not even be here next year. so i'll only have atong. sadness! wow i'm depressing... so enough of that! i'm just sick of being glared at by tara's friends (brittany, harris and molly).
make me feel better about life, please
i don't know what anybody knows, but i'm getting pissy again. not outwardly, but inwardly. the only people that know i'm pissy are atong, and sarah prolly. so here's whats going on:
tara and patrick are talking again, which is good for them. but she's still not talking to me. so i don't understand why she can apologize to patrick for all the shit thats happened when he's the one that called her a bitch and a slut, and i didn't do anything and she's still not talking to me. so i don't understand that one. I saw them together this morning, and that's fine, but i know both of them saw me and neither of them smiled or seemed to give any hint that i exist. I don't like the fact that patrick can look straight at me, know i see him, and just be like... whatever. And now Tory will look at me, and not say anything. i don't understand that at all. I didn't do anything to him. he's just being awkward, but that's nothing new for tory i guess. but so it seems to me that i'm loosing friendships with the people i spent all my time with for two months. i feel like i'm being pushed away by everyone i know. i don't know why. it seems like the only people i'm still friends with are mike, atong and sarah. and mike and sarah might not even be here next year. so i'll only have atong. sadness! wow i'm depressing... so enough of that! i'm just sick of being glared at by tara's friends (brittany, harris and molly).
make me feel better about life, please