delema of the week
The delema of the week. . . Breasfeeding. . .
So I have really been thinking about if I have to wean AJ. Since the return of AF months ago my supply consistantly takes a dip every month, some months are worse than others and I end up feeling like CRAP! because I don't ever know if he is getting enough. I have noticed lately that his diapers just aren't very wet I mean like bearly wet, vs when he gets bottles while I am at work and then they are really wet, and he is only getting 4 oz at a time. Which makes me think that he is just not getting enough. It makes me feel so good when I hear a comment like "beefy arms" because there are so many times I feel like maybe I am just not cutting it for him anymore. I started working a few days a week and I can't pump worth a damm I mean literally 1 1/2oz with two pumping sessions. All that being said why am I having such a hard time with this? Their are times when I feel so selfish because I don't want to give him formula, I want BF'ing to work! Hense the feeling like crap because I hear that little voice in my head telling me "maybe you are starving him". Sometimes he is satisfied after a session but sometimes he isn't and it's not ever at the same time everyday so I have no clue what is going on. I know formula is not "evil" their are plenty of healthy babies out thier on formula. I am having a harder time with my own attachment to BF'ing. Who knew I would feel this way about BF'ing.
So I have really been thinking about if I have to wean AJ. Since the return of AF months ago my supply consistantly takes a dip every month, some months are worse than others and I end up feeling like CRAP! because I don't ever know if he is getting enough. I have noticed lately that his diapers just aren't very wet I mean like bearly wet, vs when he gets bottles while I am at work and then they are really wet, and he is only getting 4 oz at a time. Which makes me think that he is just not getting enough. It makes me feel so good when I hear a comment like "beefy arms" because there are so many times I feel like maybe I am just not cutting it for him anymore. I started working a few days a week and I can't pump worth a damm I mean literally 1 1/2oz with two pumping sessions. All that being said why am I having such a hard time with this? Their are times when I feel so selfish because I don't want to give him formula, I want BF'ing to work! Hense the feeling like crap because I hear that little voice in my head telling me "maybe you are starving him". Sometimes he is satisfied after a session but sometimes he isn't and it's not ever at the same time everyday so I have no clue what is going on. I know formula is not "evil" their are plenty of healthy babies out thier on formula. I am having a harder time with my own attachment to BF'ing. Who knew I would feel this way about BF'ing.