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so i'm stepping up. kinda. gabe's been kicked out. cuz he's like me. just like me. so i'm getting a house. and i'm sticking around az a bit longer. til he graduates and i can take him away from here. it was kinda overnight. and i'm ok with it. so i'm putting off my plans for long term travel until he's out of school, but i still plan to spend three months at the end of the year in europe. i'm not fixed yet, but i'm out of the fire i think. its so hard to let go of the past... but i made a sign that i'm putting on the back of my door that says " deep inside your heart, deep inside your soul, just let it all go." and every time i read it, i see my friend russel's drunken smiling face and it makes me almost do a happy dance. but sometimes it just helps in the bad moments when i feel too much. i started walking again yesterday. well, i'm hobbling. but still. i'm up and about. a little. :) i'm a gimp. and living in a second story apartment is a bitch cuz stairs are evil. EVIL! but maybe by next week i can get back to working. makes me happy. i'm lonely. really lonely. people should come visit me. and by people, i mean all of you. every single one of you. i need some hugs. and some friendly support while i get this shit back together. so hit a sistah up. show me some love. 480-238-9266