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It seems like livejournal has become my medium through which I write all of my shitty, depressing posts. I apologize for that...
I guess I just find solace in the fact that few people will read this and people I don't want reading it won't.
I'm just really sick of a lot of stuff. I'm tired... physically, mentally, and emotionally I am broken over something stupid and trivial to everyone else, but it has the power to make me crumble to my hands and knees.
I really don't like it up here. I keep telling myself to hold out until next year, next year I'll have some amazing people up here with me... but what if they get up here and I still hate it? What if UNI or even school in general just isn't for me?
I hate being lost... but it seems like the past couple days, weeks even it's been my state of existance...
I just don't know anymore....
I guess I just find solace in the fact that few people will read this and people I don't want reading it won't.
I'm just really sick of a lot of stuff. I'm tired... physically, mentally, and emotionally I am broken over something stupid and trivial to everyone else, but it has the power to make me crumble to my hands and knees.
I really don't like it up here. I keep telling myself to hold out until next year, next year I'll have some amazing people up here with me... but what if they get up here and I still hate it? What if UNI or even school in general just isn't for me?
I hate being lost... but it seems like the past couple days, weeks even it's been my state of existance...
I just don't know anymore....