Crushed
~So okay, hello everyone that still checks to see if ive updated. Im sorry for not updating in a really long time.. but i guess i just havent had anything to say. Well now i do!...
Im really really upset. Ive been with this great guy for 5 months and im so scared that he is going to end things.. We got into a 'heated discusion' about breaking up this past weekend. It tore me apart, to know that he would be happy without me. Then i thought we had it all worked out. So i went on for a day or so happy because everything seemed good. Then i started thinking logically about it. I know he cares about me so maybe he is jsut telling me everything is okay between us so that i can survive through this week. I told him how i only got 2 hours sleep and cried for hours after our 'heated discusion' and he tells me he cares about me and always will. So i know taht it is so very possible that he is just waiting until this weekend when i see him to end things. I love him so much. I really really do. If he would be happier without me then i guess i will have to be okay with that, because i love him. I just wish i knew that things were going to be okay. Im scared to ask him to tell me if hes going to break up with me because im scared of what he might say. He is not a bad person. he really isnt. He cares about me and loves me as a best friend. hes always been a good boyfriend. Honest, and loyal, and loving. And i pray to God above that things will be okay. If you have any advice or comments on how i can deal with a break up if it comes to that please let me know. Just incase i need your advice on how to handle the worst.. ~
~!MiCk!~
~peace
Im really really upset. Ive been with this great guy for 5 months and im so scared that he is going to end things.. We got into a 'heated discusion' about breaking up this past weekend. It tore me apart, to know that he would be happy without me. Then i thought we had it all worked out. So i went on for a day or so happy because everything seemed good. Then i started thinking logically about it. I know he cares about me so maybe he is jsut telling me everything is okay between us so that i can survive through this week. I told him how i only got 2 hours sleep and cried for hours after our 'heated discusion' and he tells me he cares about me and always will. So i know taht it is so very possible that he is just waiting until this weekend when i see him to end things. I love him so much. I really really do. If he would be happier without me then i guess i will have to be okay with that, because i love him. I just wish i knew that things were going to be okay. Im scared to ask him to tell me if hes going to break up with me because im scared of what he might say. He is not a bad person. he really isnt. He cares about me and loves me as a best friend. hes always been a good boyfriend. Honest, and loyal, and loving. And i pray to God above that things will be okay. If you have any advice or comments on how i can deal with a break up if it comes to that please let me know. Just incase i need your advice on how to handle the worst.. ~
~!MiCk!~
~peace