Aug 18, 2011 20:41
OKay guys.. i dicided to change the titel of this fic... before > Sunshine after the rain
I really like the other one, but i think that this one is just fitting better with the story..
Hope you will still continue reading the fic and will not get to confused. ;)
>>>Sorry hun i changed it, but thank you for the titel anyway :P <<<
Next chapter enjoy it ;Chapter 3
I opened my eyes and saw two beautiful blue eyes looking back at me. I looked
around and realized that I was lying on the big sofa in the office, with Sophie sitting next to me on a chair.
“What happened?” I asked her while I sat up.
“You fainted. Here drink that I will do you good” She said while handing me a coke.
“Do you remember the last think I told you?” and suddenly everything came crushing back in to me. My mum, she broke down and now she is in hospital.
Something is wrong with her kidneys. I thought, maybe it was all just a nightmare but reality hit me hard.
“Yeah” it‘s all I could say before I felt my tears coming back.
“I’m so sorry Sian, we have to wait for some more test results to be sure okay?
But if you want you can see her now.” She said while looking straight in to my eyes.
“Yeah” I couldn’t say much more before my voice broke a little. I took a big gulp from my coke to get rid of the fizzy feeling in my head.
“Okay I will take you to her room, but are you sure you can manage that yet?” I just nodded and tried to calm down a bit.
“Good erm, I will stay there with you if you want.” She held out her hand once more for me to take it. I took it while we stood up from the sofa and made our way to my mum’s room. My legs felt like jelly and I’m glad Sophie is holding me, cuz I don’t know if I would have managed the way on my own.
After we went through a few floors and passedsome doors when we stopped in front of a room
with a big window, so you could look in the room, but the blinds where closed lightly.
Sophie turned to me and I saw a worried look in her eyes.
“Sian, there are a few machines and stuff, but you don’t have to be scared they are to keep her alive okay? Just to warn you.”
I nodded and she turned back to the door and pushed it open.
She led me in to the room and closed the door behind us. I looked at her the whole time, cuz I was too scared to look at the state in front of me.
She gripped my hand tightly and went next to the bed with me.
I felt my tears coming back straight away when I saw my mum lying in thehospital bed. She looked so small and fragile in between all the machines and tubes.
Sophie let go of my hand and I panicked from the cold feeling I felt now. Even though I don’t know her, I felt safe with her. She must have noticed my panic, cuz she gripped my hand again and turned her gaze to my eyes.
“Don’t worry I’m not going anywhere, I will just grab the chair over there, okay.” She said nodding over to the other side of the room and when I followed her gaze, I saw a chair standing next to the window. I turned my gaze back over to her and nodded, when she let go of my hand, went over to the other side of the room and grabbed the chair out of the corner.
I watched her every move, cuz I was scared she would go away I couldn’t stand being alone in here.
When she came back she put the chair next to the bed.
“Sit down, I don’t want you to faint again” she told me with a little smile forming in the corner of her mouth. I did what I was told and sat down on the chair, while taking another sip of my coke and putting it on the night table next to my mum.
I turned my gaze over to look at my mum and took one of her hands in mine. She was so pale and the wires everywhere looked really scary.
"Mum, hey, it’s me” I almost whispered with tears streaming down my face again.
“Can she hear me?” I asked while turning my gaze up to Sophie. Actually it doesn’t matter if she could hear me or not, I just had to talk to her, but I wanted to know anyway.
“Maybe, I can’t tell, cuz some people can and some don’t, so just speak to her maybe she can hear you.” She smiled at me lightly and I looked back at my mum.
“Mum, what are you doing ay? Scaring me like this.” I wiped a few strands of tears from my face and cleared my throat.
“You can’t leave me, you hear me! You are the only one I have left. Please you have to be okay.” My voice broke in the end and I couldn’t stop my tears from falling anymore but I knew I had to be strong for my mum now.
Knock Knock
I looked up to Sophie when I heard the knock on the door.
“Come in” she said her gaze still fixed on my eyes.
The door opened and someone came over to us.
“Sophie the test results are here, can we go out for a minute, so we can talk
about it?” the man asked Sophie, but it wasn’t really a question.
I turned around to look at the man. It must be the chef cuz he was wearing the same white jacket like Sophie with his name on it
- Dr. B. Wilkans-
was written on it.
Sophie turned her gaze over to him, nodded and looked back at me.
“I will be back in a minute okay” She said and stroke her hand above my back.
I nodded and she turned around and went out of the room.
When I heard the door shut I turned my gaze back over to my mum.
“Please don’t leave me, I need you” I said while I stroke a few stains of hair out of her face. I just stared at her for a few minutes till I heard the door opened again. I wanted to turn around, but I couldn’t take my eyes away from my mum. The door closed again and I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned my gaze and saw Sophie standing next to me.
“Sian, I have the test results here.”
The worried look from earlier was back in her eyes. And from the concern in her voice I knew it wasn’t good.
“What is it?” I asked in a low and broken voice.
“The tests showed that there isn’t any hope for both of her kidneys anymore.” She said.
“W-what does that m-mean?” I don’t know if I even want to hear the answer.
“It means that she needs a donor for her kidney. Soon!” I could hear her say the words, but I couldn’t understand them. It was like she was talking in another language with me.
“Sian” I felt her shake me lightly on the shoulder.
“Sian, hey, can you hear me?” She kneeled down in front of me and put her hand on my face. I snapped out of my
shock state with her touch.
“How… how long? How long can she wait?” I had to know if there was still hope.
She looked at me, then down to the floor. I put my hand under her chin and made her look at me.
“Please Sophie tell me” I pleaded.
She took my hands in her own and fixed her gaze on my eyes.
“I can’t tell exactly, but not longer than a few weeks. Without a donor her body will lose the fight. We are keeping her alive with the machines, but she can’t stay on them for too long. And the cancer is too aggressive, so we have to remove that kidney soon.” She held my hands really tight and didn’t break the eye contact once.
I felt the tears welling up behind my eyes again and before I could do something about it they were streaming down my face. Sophie removed one of her hands from mine laid it on my cheek and rubbed my tears away with her thumb.
“I’m really sorry Sian.” She said.
“Is there a-anything I can do?” I asked her with a broken voice.
“Yeah, actually there is, we can test you and see if you can spend a kidney for your mum, only if you want.” She removed her and from my cheek again and put it back on my hands.
“Yeah sure, what do I have to do?” I asked her with a bit hope in my voice.
She stood up still with my hands in hers and brought me up with her.
“We will do a blood test to see if you are a possible donor for her. I will tell you all the risks and what we will do exactly when we have the results okay?” she said calmly.
I nodded and smiled at her lightly. It was just a little smile to say thank you and I think she understood. She smiled back and turned around to take me with her in another room. I turned around once more and looked at my mum.
“I will be back in a minute okay mum.” I said, giving her a kiss on her forehead and turned around to follow Sophie out of the room.
“We will have the results after a few hours and then we can talk about the operation and the risks okay?” she asked me while we made our way over to the otherroom.
“Yeah, that’s okay.” I said
“But Sophie?” I stopped and she turned around to me.
"Yeah?” she replied. I didn’t know how to say it but I had to know.
“What will happen, when.. erm.. when I..”
“You mean when your blood group is not fitting?” she interrupted me.
I nodded and felt a knot in my throat. The look in her eyes changed again. The little glimmer of hope wasn’t there anymore.
“Sophie please, just tell me. What are the chances of another donor?”
She looked down to the floor then back at me.
“Sian, I will be honest with you, your mums blood group is 0 negative. Only 7% in the USA have that blood group. The problem with 0 negative is, that you can spend to every other blood group, but your body only accepts
0 negative.” She explained to me.
“So if my mum and I have different blood groups, the chance of a donor is 7%?”
My hope sank straight away after she told me that.
She shook her head.
“No, not exactly. The chances are always a bit lower, so I would say the chance of a fitting donor is 3-5%. I’m so sorry Sian, but don’t think about that yet, we will test you and then we will see okay?”
I couldn’t say anything, I just nodded and lowered my gaze to the floor.
“Hey it will be okay, you hear me, everything will be okay.” She said while cupping my face with her hands.
“Thank you” I whispered.
“For what?” she asked me while she looked in to my eyes, her hands still on my cheeks.
“For being honest with me. Most of the doctors talking around the subject and just try to keep up their hope, but you, you’re different.” I said giving her a light smile.
“And for comforting me. I mean you don’t know me and you are a doctor or at least you will be one and it‘s your job to tell people bad news. But you are here with me all the time even though you just met me a few hours ago.” I continued and fixed my gaze straight in her eyes before lowering it to the floor and fiddling with my hands.
“I just feel comfortable with you and I’m worried about you, cuz you have so much to take. Even though I don’t know you really I just feel comfortable. But let‘s go now okay we don’t have much time.” I brought my gaze back to her eyes and nodded. She let her hands drop from my face, took one of my hands in hers and turned around. We went through a door and she nodded over to a chair.
10 minutes later and we were on our way back to my mum’s room.
“I didn’t hurt you with the needle did I?” Sophie asked me with a little smirk.
“No I’m fine, how long did you say we had to wait for the results?” I was so nervous, I couldn’t wait for the results.
“Erm 2 hour’s maybe. We will go to your mum’s room and you can rest a bit okay?” she said and pushed open the door to my mum’s room.
I sad back down on the chair, and grabbed my mum’s hand again.
“Hey mum I’m back.” I said to her and laid my head on her bed.
“Are you tired Sian?” Sophie asked me from behind.
“Yeah” I mumbled. I felt her sitting next to me on the arm of the chair. She laid one hand on my shoulder and with the other one she took my free hand in hers. I change my position and laid my head on Sophie’s lap, with my hand still connected with my mum’s hand. I felt so safe with her and slowly I drifted off to sleep.