With you by my side Chapter 2
Chapter 2
“Mum” I whispered.
I was frozen in my spot. I wanted to go over to her but I couldn’t move.
I was in shock, seeing her lying on the floor in between pieces of glass, with
blood on her arm.
I could barely breathe.
After what felt like eternity, I could
move again and I realized, that I had to do something.
I run over to her and grabbed my phone from the kitchen table.
While I called 999 I kneeled down beside her and shook her lightly.
“Mum” I almost screamed while I felt tears streaming down my face,
“Mum, can you hear me, please say something” I sobbed.
I shook on her shoulder once more and brought the phone up to my ear.
“Hello, I need help, I don’t know w-what happened she is not mo-ving I... I.“ I
sobbed down the phone. I was top destroyed to form a correct sentence and I
couldn’t think clear.
“Miss, you have to calm down. Tell me where you are” The women on the phone
said softly.
“My m-mum she b-b-roke down, I.. I don’t know w-what happened I need an am-ambulance
quick.”
“Okay but you have to tell me where you are, so I can send the ambulance to you,
okay?!”
I told her the address and she gave me some advice for things I had to do.
“I will stay here on the phone till the ambulance is there Miss and I will help
you to do the right things” the women said, again in a soft and calm voice.
“First of all, I want you to check her pulse and if she is still breathing.”
She told me.
Even though, I knew how to do it normally, I had to ask cuz everything in my
head went blank and I couldn’t remember.
“How c-can I do that?” “You have to put your middle and your index finger on
her wrist and use a bit pressure.”
I did what I was told and held two fingers on her wrist. Panic rushed over my
body, when I couldn’t feel her pulse straight away. But after a few seconds I
felt a slow and weak heartbeat and I saw her torso going up and down when she
was breathing.
After about 10 minutes, maybe less, I have no idea, I heard the ambulance
coming.
I got up and opened the door for the paramedics to come in. They followed me in
to the kitchen and started to check her pulse, breathing and if she has any
heavy injuries on her body.
I just sat on a chair in the kitchen and watched them doing their work.
One of them, a young black haired man, came over and kneeled down in front of
me. He looked in my eyes and put his hand on my shoulder.
“Miss, can you tell me what happened?” He asked me, also in a soft voice.
I think they had to do a course for that before they can work in this job. No
one speaks so soft in real life. Maybe they thing that the news they had to
tell the families and friends wouldn’t sound that bad. But to be honest it’s
somehow annoying. Oh shit Sian he asked you something, so answer him.
I just looked at him and shook my head.
“Okay alright we have to take her to the hospital to check what’s wrong with
her.” He said, again in this annoying calm voice.
I watched them put her on the stretcher and in to the ambulance, with all the
wired and tubes connected to her body.
“Miss are you coming with us?” The Young men asked me.
I couldn’t speak anymore, so I just nodded and went in to the car. I sat next
to my mum holding her hand and I was praying to god, that she will be okay. I
do not really believe and I haven’t been in church since my nan died 6 years
ago, but now I hope there is a god and that he will listen to me.
We rushed to the New Orleans hospital and the whole way, all I could do was
stare.
Stare at my mum.
I was so scared to lose her. She is everything for me I can’t lose her.
As soon as we arrived at the hospital they brought her straight in to the operating
room thro a few doors where they said I couldn’t follow.
You know the doors they are going in and when
you want to follow them the nurse comes over to you and says, “I’m sorry miss
but you can’t go in there you have to wait here. But the doctors will do
everything to save her.” Yeah that doors.
So I was sitting in the waiting room for hours. I went to the receptionist a
few times, but she told me the same every time.
“I can’t tell you anything yet, you have to wait for the doctor. But I’m sure
they will do what they can for your mum. Can I call someone for you? Your dad
or a friend that can comfort you?” She had the same calm and soft voice like
the paramedic and the women on the phone before.
I wanted to say yes, but who could she call.
There is no one left. After Chesney went back to Manchester last night, my mum
is the only person I have left. And I wouldn’t call my dad cuz he wouldn’t give
a shit anyway.
I shook my head and went back in to the waiting room, sat down and just stared
at the blank white wall in front of me. It’s so annoying that all the walls are
just blank white. I mean it’s a hospital people are supposed to get better
here, but with those walls all you get are depressions. My eyelids feel really
heavy from all the crying and before I could think of anything else I fell in
to a restless sleep.
After what felt like a life time but in real it was just 4 hours I was woken up
by a young woman coming in to the room. She had long wavy brown hair and a
beautiful face, with her clear blue eyes. She looked really young, maybe 20 or
22.
She was too young to be a real doctor, but she was wearing the blue uniform and
a white jacked over it with her name on it. So I guess she is something like an
assistant doctor.
She looked around and when she saw me she came over and sat next to me.
“Hey, you are Sian Powers right? The girl, that came with Janett Powers?” She
asked me.
I looked at her and just nodded.
“I’m Sophie Webster, I’m the assistant doctor and your mum is my Patient. You
can call me Sophie, is it okay if I say Sian?” She said in a calm voice.
But it wasn’t the same voice like the others. It was different. I felt that it
was real and not fake. When the women on the phone and the paramedic where
talking to me It was like they had trained to talk like that, but with her it’s
like she was really feeling with me and was caring.
I nodded and looked in her eyes.
“How is she? Can I see her? Tell me what’s wrong with her.” It just came out of
my mouth and I felt the tears welling up behind my eyes again.
“I can’t tell you exactly what’s wrong with her yet, we have to wait for some
test results, but erm… there is something we need to talk about.” She looked at
me with concern in her eyes and touched my shoulder lightly, giving me some
comfort.
“Let’s go to a more private place and I will tell you what we found out okay?!”
She held out her hand in front of me for me to take it. It’s weird. I don’t
know her and she is my mum’s doctor but I felt comfortable with her straight
away, so I took her hand and she lead me to an office.
To be honest, I don’t know if I could have walked the way on my own, my knees
were shaky and my head felt dizzy.
She opened the door to the office and it was actually a nice room with a big red
sofa in it. It was really modern and the walls weren’t that blank white like in
all the other rooms. It was painted in warm colors like red orange and yellow,
but not too loaded. There was a big glass desk in the middle of the room just
next to the big window and a few plans and little trees where standing around
it. I looked back over my shoulder, to look at Sophie and she nodded over to
the sofa.
“You can sit down on the there if you like or on the chair whatever you prefer.”
She said while closing the door behind her.
I sat down on the sofa and she came over and sat next to me.
“Can you please tell me what’s wrong” I said and felt the tears streaming down
my face again.
She looked at me and I saw in her eyes that it was something serious. She
wasn’t hiding the fact, that she didn’t know how to tell me the news.
“Okay, erm… your mum has a Renal cell carcinoma or better known as Kidney cancer.” She almost
whispered the words and looked at me.
I felt my world falling apart. It’s just a few words, but they felt like they
would rip my heart out of my chest. My mum has cancer. I can’t believe it. I
had so many thoughts in my head but I had to know more so I looked back in to
her eyes.
From the look in her eyes I knew, that there was more and I wasn’t sure if I
wanted to hear it now, or more if I could take anymore at the moment.
“But there is more” She said in a low voice.
“Tell me. How bad is it?” I pleaded and was now fully crying again.
Sophie put her hand on mine and took a deep breath.
“The cancer is on the right kidney and it failed. But cuz of that the left
kidney had to do all the work and now her left kidney failed
as well.” I couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe and couldn’t speak.
I was in a shock. I could hear her words again and again in my Head and the
room began to spin. I looked at her, she was speaking to me but I couldn’t hear
anything. I saw the worry in her eyes before everything went black.