eye of the beholder
hm, my mind is soaring again. making connections and sorting everything accordingly. i think my brain is literally reshaping itself. that's how it works right? nervous breakdown, then restructuring. so yeah, my body's starting to get rest again, which is good. peach and stan will be in their place this weekend, and i will have space to myself. it's also really good the school money came. kinda need that to live, you know. hm, i need to eat more often. i mean, there's no shortage of food in the house or anything. just haven't been hungry. gee, i wonder why? no matter, it's not important. it's strange how you look at something again and are able to take from it a refreshed version. like dune. lol, i'll have to actually read those books now. as soon as i find them... hm, too many boxes. isn't that the name of a william sleator book? i believe so. the irony. anyway, i'll prob'ly try to pick up my school books tomorrow or something. sigh. good classes this quarter. i can't wait. ah, and of course, i made it into the oac. that's exciting. i think i'll really enjoy it. just one more hour of work. yay!!! drinks tonight!!!! hell yeah, one of each bacardi. hurricane, mai tai, and whatever that red one's called, i keep forgetting. hell, we could use it. it's been a trial. let this horrible year close, and let the door of opportunity open. hm, that reminds me of the most beautiful dream i've ever had. it was so... simple. i'll have to keep going back to that, whenever i want to feel frustrated. for now, i'll delve into my nerdhood, reading up on brains and the universe. it never gets old. but that's why we're drawn to what we're drawn to, right? for us, it never dies. hm. can't wait to go home! i need to get started writing in my stories again. before i get too busy to. i need to finish that third book. it's turning out... weird, to say the least. i'm giving myself to the new year to get it done. shouldn't take me even a month, though, if i get on it. i've collected all my stories into a giant bin. i'll need to count them again, because i'm no longer sure how many stories i actually have. and here i am wanting to start more. ha, don't i get on david for not finishing things? i'll finish the important ones at least. after all, i'm sure that the one i want to start will actually not be a parallel series or a continuation of any previous story i've written. it's about time. i think i could use a break from the black tree lines and that queen aeryn mess. lol, not because i don't love them, but because i'm too attached to the black tree series and the queen aeryn series is so light. i'd like to get back into my heavier modes. it'll be interesting to see how this generation of stories will turn out. sigh, i really, really, really wish that i had the beginning of the black tree series back already. there's so much i need to fill in and all, and it's been almost a decade since i've seen or read them. sigh. this is going to turn into a mess if i don't get them back. the rest of the stories will be messed up. whatever, i'll think about that in its own time. hm, why did this entry become mostly about writing? shrug. let me get back to work.