leaving on a jet plane, bitch
Kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again,
Oh, babe, I hate to go
what i've been up to the past few days- Sunday i did stuff around the house and got ready, then i went to see LOTR with melanie, my brother, and his friend, Zev. i had such an awesome time at melanie's house. it was so great. i love that girl with all my heart..its insane. i made her watch the brak show on adult swim and she flipped out. she couldnt handle the tripiness teeheehee. then monday i worked in the hospital and did last minute stuff for israel and saw talia. love her too. i forgot how depressing and fun working in the hospital is. i love it there. im going to volunteer more. then today i worked at the hospital and then hung out with John, Emma, and Danielle. that was great too. i love those people as well. i finished packing now and im just clearing up my room and all that good stuff. its been a great couple of days. i'm happy. i admit it. besides for being lonely, which i've learned to ignore and accept, im doing ok, i guess. not having school makes a huge difference.
i'm leaving for israel tommorow. its basically middle school all over again. i'm really worried...but i know that if i really want to have fun, i need to make it fun for myself. im going to hang out with who i want to hang out with and do what i want to do. i'll let the bad things go and concentrate on the good. i wish melanie could come. it would be better for me, but i still have all my other best friends.
-note about last few entries- i dont really feel that alone and depressed. the truth is i dont know what i want so i really shouldnt complain, but its sad that i sound like a thirty five year old woman waiting to get married when i'm really a fifteen year old girl wishing she had someone to hold hands with and to kiss good bye. thats all i want at this point...
i'll miss you all. i'll update when i get back with key moments and funny stuff. maybe even some pictures if you're lucky.
this better be fucking awesome. love you.
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,
Don't know when I'll be back again,
Oh, babe, I hate to go
what i've been up to the past few days- Sunday i did stuff around the house and got ready, then i went to see LOTR with melanie, my brother, and his friend, Zev. i had such an awesome time at melanie's house. it was so great. i love that girl with all my heart..its insane. i made her watch the brak show on adult swim and she flipped out. she couldnt handle the tripiness teeheehee. then monday i worked in the hospital and did last minute stuff for israel and saw talia. love her too. i forgot how depressing and fun working in the hospital is. i love it there. im going to volunteer more. then today i worked at the hospital and then hung out with John, Emma, and Danielle. that was great too. i love those people as well. i finished packing now and im just clearing up my room and all that good stuff. its been a great couple of days. i'm happy. i admit it. besides for being lonely, which i've learned to ignore and accept, im doing ok, i guess. not having school makes a huge difference.
i'm leaving for israel tommorow. its basically middle school all over again. i'm really worried...but i know that if i really want to have fun, i need to make it fun for myself. im going to hang out with who i want to hang out with and do what i want to do. i'll let the bad things go and concentrate on the good. i wish melanie could come. it would be better for me, but i still have all my other best friends.
-note about last few entries- i dont really feel that alone and depressed. the truth is i dont know what i want so i really shouldnt complain, but its sad that i sound like a thirty five year old woman waiting to get married when i'm really a fifteen year old girl wishing she had someone to hold hands with and to kiss good bye. thats all i want at this point...
i'll miss you all. i'll update when i get back with key moments and funny stuff. maybe even some pictures if you're lucky.
this better be fucking awesome. love you.