Reckless
I'm made a really stupid decision today, but it was fun.
I had kind of a bad day today, so when my sister unexpectedly announced that she wasn't taking me home after school, I wasn't in the best mood. My sister has been unbearibly selfish and pissy lately, so I told her Fine, I'll just walk home. My house is about 5 miles away from the school near the highway mostly, but I decided it wouldn't matter because my mom and I usually walk about 6 miles on the bike trail everyday.
My friend, Chase, who didn't have a ride either, walked with me, because he would have to do so regardless. He's done it before, and I trust him as a person, so I felt OK going with him. On our way, we stopped by the Elementary school to get a drink of water, and ended up staying on the play ground for half an hour, playing and reminiscing the past. It was really a lot of fun. I was really a monkey child back in my elementary days. I used to do flips off everything, and DANG did I have wicked upper body strength. I could only do about half the flips I used to, another reason being I'm too tall now for some things. We sat on the swings talking about how we were like in 1st, 2nd, 3rd grade, hands waving frantically in explaination. We talked about how we are different now, and how we are still the same. The conversation got rather nostalgic. He told me how his parents still had hope for him, I told him how food never crossed my mind as means tp self-destruct, nor did I feel the impulse to do so. And we were OK, looking at our childhoods fondly. I did a flip on the swing. Rocks flew at my face. It was fun.
After going into the school and getting a drink, the office lady giving us a WTF look, we stopped at my grandma's place. LUUUUULZZZZZ. My grandma shot off questions to Chase like a machine gun, because I'm going to prom with him (he's only my friend, of course). She asked him his age, grade, his GPA, his interests, if he was going to college (to which he said yes and I spat my diet coke out my nose), why we're friends, what we're going to do at prom, etc., etc... It was hilarious, really. I almost felt bad for Chase because he was really caught off guard by Grandma's sharp tongue. She's a little devil, she is. But it was too funny to feel bad for him. Later on both him and my grandma started talking about my writing, Slipping Between My Fingers, specifically, and they really seemed to strangely bond over that. It was... weird. I eventually ended up reading a new chapter I wrote recently to them. It was fun.
We left, and we had to walk near the highway. Just a way aways from my grandma's, my mommy drove past. She quickly pulled over and she was so, so upset. I felt so bad. I felt really bad. She said she went to the highschool looking all over for me, drove back and forth on the road, went to the bike trail. She said she thought I was alone, and that she was so scared. I started crying I felt so bad. I did not mean to hurt her at all. I was just upset, and felt really agitated at my sister. It's a known fact that teenagers do stupid things when they feel that way. Everyone knows that. My mom has already forgiven me, because she knows how bad a feel for putting her trhough that, and that I've never made a stupid decision like that before, and it was just a slip up. So everything's OK. I just feel horrible for hurting Mommy like that.
Despite that, it was fun walking, especially the play ground. I don't regret walking for that reason, but I do regret making Mom feel so scared. Also, I was thinking about giving up recovery, but I walking all that way, for some reason, made me realize it's not worth it.
So I'm alright, and we're OK (except for my aching, aching body-- I've been overworking myself lately).
Aren't ou guys glad I used a cut? XD
So now I am off to walk on the bike trail with my mom [/dead].
I missed you at school today, tomandakaulitz . T___T