GRRR!!! Just... grr >:P
I haven't updated in forvever, again. A lot of things have been going on, but I've still had some time to make posts on here... but I haven't. That's really pretty freaking lame. What's even more lame is the fact the I update my ED journal a lot more than this one. That's just shows where mind is. i:P
But enough about that. Half the reason I don't post much on here anymore is because, as soon as I start typing, I have the urge to post my ED stuff, so I stop. I'm really trying to separate my personal life and my ED stuff but, as you can see, that's proving really hard to do.
In other news, I'm going to Mexico on the 26th.
It's my Grandparent's 50th anniversary on the... some date. I'm not really sure what day, exactly. Heehee. *scratches head* Yeah, so we're going to Mexico to celebrate it. They're having one of their big, boring parties that they always have, where people come just to stuff their faces and leave without even really caring about the reason for the party. We have to wear gold... -___-U Well, they can have fun trying to find me a gold dress that I'll actually like, let alone wear. Awesome. Last big part they made me wear an ugly, shiny, blue dress, now they're making me wear an ugly. shiny, gold dress that'll show all my fat.
Also, my family in Mexico almost never buy gifts. Not for Birthdays (they even forgot to call on my Birthday this year), and not for Christmas. Except for underwear that's far too big and books on the dangers of premarital sex. Yup, always fun.
At least I get to go swimming!!! I also get to walk around wherever I want, whenever I want, which means bye-bye calories! (again, I'm finding it impossible to separate myself from my eating disorder) Not to mention things will be so hectic and crazy in preparation for the party that I'm sure people won't moniter my eating. Win~!
Maybe going to Mexico won't be so bad, after all.
Oh, yeah! I'm also getting all the Christmas presents for my friends in Mexico so I can get them something authentic.
Wohoo! Tomorrow is the last day of school before break! And I'll be skipping it! Yesssss~~~~! Mainly because it's only a half day and there's really no point in going. Plus, I have a BUTTLOAD of work that I need to get done if I'm going to go to school tomorrw. And so far, I've only got about 20% of it done.
Crap to get done:
-Two Geometry worksheets
-Read My Name is Asher Lev, write a journal entry on each chapter, and an essay on the entire book
-Study for Vocab Quiz in Honors English
-Finish coloring negative space of self-portrait for Advanced Drawing
-Draw 5 box figures for Advanced Drawing
-Investigate artwork of five famous artists, write analysis, impressions of their work and emulate their styles for AD.
-Fill 1/4 of the giant sketchbook for AD. (Uh, did I really say I wanted to be an artist?)
-Finish Collage on Modern American Society for Sociology
-Finish Social Values Worksheet for Sociology
-Finsh section questions for sociology
-Do problems 1-16 on four different chapters for American History
-Finish Key terms/focus questions for American History
-Study for American History test
Haha. I love how teachers throw all this crap at you on the week before Winter break and expect you to get it all done by the last day. Honestly, I'm so overwhelmed right now, I could jump off a bridge and not even care about it.
I also have major goals for break that aren't school-related. A lot of them I really doubt I'll be able to do, considering all the current craziness going on, but I'll try.
Other crap to get done:
-Lose 15 pounds over break (I know, that's near impossible, especially with my my metabolism being as screwed up as it is right now. I could eat 400 calories and freaking gain.)
-Write more of Slipping Between My Fingers
-Continue Children of Despair (another thing I doubt I will have time to do, especially considering my current loss of interest in Sadie.)
-Update on this jounal more! :D
-Make some icons... good icons (impossible)
-Buy a poop-load of Christmas gifts
-Lose 15 pounds
-Trade my ZERO「HORIZON」photocard for Karyu
-Not stab myself in the eye
-Type up my thoughts on Dir en grey's new album,「Uroboros」(I can see this maybe getting done)
-Post a couple new chapters of Slipping Between My Fingers on both myspace, my ED journal, and on either or .
-I NEED TO LOSE 15 POUNDS!
-Read The Center of Winter by Marya Hornbacher <3 (I really wanna read it sooooo bad! I've had it forever, but haven't had time.)
-Read Madness: A Bipolar Life by Marya Hornbacher (if I get it as a present from my parents; it was one of four things on my Christmas list.)
-Practice bass. Prease?
-Did I mention I really have to lose 15 pounds?
-Not punch myself in the stomach, but if I have to, I will
-Make a thinspo journal. Because I am a fat loser.
-Write thoughts on Sadie's new single,「Ice Romancer」(I was going to do that tonight, but this post is already long enough.)
-Ugh, sleep. Considering my insomnia has become increasingly worse lately. Yup, 2-3 hours of sleep does noy cut it for me, especially not on around 200 calories a day.
-Morn RENTRER EN SOI's soon-disbandment. I already cried today on the bus.
-Hang out with friends before I go to Mexico.
-Update my VampireFreaks
-Lose 15 freaking pounds of lard!!!
-Find a way to stay alive and completely sane. So far, this is the most impossible of them all...
OK, that's enough crap for tonight. I must awesomely go workout until, like... 3 in the morning because that's pretty much what I've been doing everynight for the last month. I WANT TO SLEEP!!! and lose 15 pounds.
But enough about that. Half the reason I don't post much on here anymore is because, as soon as I start typing, I have the urge to post my ED stuff, so I stop. I'm really trying to separate my personal life and my ED stuff but, as you can see, that's proving really hard to do.
In other news, I'm going to Mexico on the 26th.
It's my Grandparent's 50th anniversary on the... some date. I'm not really sure what day, exactly. Heehee. *scratches head* Yeah, so we're going to Mexico to celebrate it. They're having one of their big, boring parties that they always have, where people come just to stuff their faces and leave without even really caring about the reason for the party. We have to wear gold... -___-U Well, they can have fun trying to find me a gold dress that I'll actually like, let alone wear. Awesome. Last big part they made me wear an ugly, shiny, blue dress, now they're making me wear an ugly. shiny, gold dress that'll show all my fat.
Also, my family in Mexico almost never buy gifts. Not for Birthdays (they even forgot to call on my Birthday this year), and not for Christmas. Except for underwear that's far too big and books on the dangers of premarital sex. Yup, always fun.
At least I get to go swimming!!! I also get to walk around wherever I want, whenever I want, which means bye-bye calories! (again, I'm finding it impossible to separate myself from my eating disorder) Not to mention things will be so hectic and crazy in preparation for the party that I'm sure people won't moniter my eating. Win~!
Maybe going to Mexico won't be so bad, after all.
Oh, yeah! I'm also getting all the Christmas presents for my friends in Mexico so I can get them something authentic.
Wohoo! Tomorrow is the last day of school before break! And I'll be skipping it! Yesssss~~~~! Mainly because it's only a half day and there's really no point in going. Plus, I have a BUTTLOAD of work that I need to get done if I'm going to go to school tomorrw. And so far, I've only got about 20% of it done.
Crap to get done:
-Two Geometry worksheets
-Read My Name is Asher Lev, write a journal entry on each chapter, and an essay on the entire book
-Study for Vocab Quiz in Honors English
-Finish coloring negative space of self-portrait for Advanced Drawing
-Draw 5 box figures for Advanced Drawing
-Investigate artwork of five famous artists, write analysis, impressions of their work and emulate their styles for AD.
-Fill 1/4 of the giant sketchbook for AD. (Uh, did I really say I wanted to be an artist?)
-Finish Collage on Modern American Society for Sociology
-Finish Social Values Worksheet for Sociology
-Finsh section questions for sociology
-Do problems 1-16 on four different chapters for American History
-Finish Key terms/focus questions for American History
-Study for American History test
Haha. I love how teachers throw all this crap at you on the week before Winter break and expect you to get it all done by the last day. Honestly, I'm so overwhelmed right now, I could jump off a bridge and not even care about it.
I also have major goals for break that aren't school-related. A lot of them I really doubt I'll be able to do, considering all the current craziness going on, but I'll try.
Other crap to get done:
-Lose 15 pounds over break (I know, that's near impossible, especially with my my metabolism being as screwed up as it is right now. I could eat 400 calories and freaking gain.)
-Write more of Slipping Between My Fingers
-Continue Children of Despair (another thing I doubt I will have time to do, especially considering my current loss of interest in Sadie.)
-Update on this jounal more! :D
-Make some icons... good icons (impossible)
-Buy a poop-load of Christmas gifts
-Lose 15 pounds
-Trade my ZERO「HORIZON」photocard for Karyu
-Not stab myself in the eye
-Type up my thoughts on Dir en grey's new album,「Uroboros」(I can see this maybe getting done)
-Post a couple new chapters of Slipping Between My Fingers on both myspace, my ED journal, and on either or .
-I NEED TO LOSE 15 POUNDS!
-Read The Center of Winter by Marya Hornbacher <3 (I really wanna read it sooooo bad! I've had it forever, but haven't had time.)
-Read Madness: A Bipolar Life by Marya Hornbacher (if I get it as a present from my parents; it was one of four things on my Christmas list.)
-Practice bass. Prease?
-Did I mention I really have to lose 15 pounds?
-Not punch myself in the stomach, but if I have to, I will
-Make a thinspo journal. Because I am a fat loser.
-Write thoughts on Sadie's new single,「Ice Romancer」(I was going to do that tonight, but this post is already long enough.)
-Ugh, sleep. Considering my insomnia has become increasingly worse lately. Yup, 2-3 hours of sleep does noy cut it for me, especially not on around 200 calories a day.
-Morn RENTRER EN SOI's soon-disbandment. I already cried today on the bus.
-Hang out with friends before I go to Mexico.
-Update my VampireFreaks
-Lose 15 freaking pounds of lard!!!
-Find a way to stay alive and completely sane. So far, this is the most impossible of them all...
OK, that's enough crap for tonight. I must awesomely go workout until, like... 3 in the morning because that's pretty much what I've been doing everynight for the last month. I WANT TO SLEEP!!! and lose 15 pounds.