never die

[deadguttergirl]

bleed me broken,
fret not,the razors show love,
twisted i shall,twist into my self hate,
nothing ever felt this way,
or maybe i just forgot,
enough to just see the original memory,
no one wants the pain,i want the bloody stain,
i can not take this emotional torture,
of the universe leaving me stone cold,
just for me to get back on the horse,
and start again,to try is to know,
some how i will be let down,again and again,
but there is nothing else for me to do,
my will holds me above suicides promises.