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something i wrote about this guy i like alot.. =/
whatever i just felt like sharing it. it sucks but oh well.
youre the type of guy that everyone loves
because really who couldnt love you. its just
theres something about you that im really
attracted to i guess? but im realizing the part
im really attracted to is the fakest part of
you. i just wished you were yourself. then i
would really like you? i think.. not the fake
part of you. i wish you were honest. then you
wouldnt hurt me like you do. whatever. things
cant always be my way i guess? they never
are. i just wish you were yourself. then i could
see the real you and like you for you. the part that
hurts me the most is that i feel like i cant tell you how
i feel. i dont know what youre gonna do.. i dont want
this to end. i know its fake. i know it is. but i just dont
want to stop. im trying to convince myself maybe you
have feelings for me back. i know its no use. but maybe
if i just try to believe it i will.. whatever i dont know.
why do you havta be like this. the thing is you dont have
any idea what pain your causing me.. why do you havta
act like this. why are you so fake. if you were just yourself
so many people would like you for the way you really are
the REAL you. not the one who trys to impress people or
lies all the time. i love who you are.. i just wish you
understood that. but its no use. i dont know anymore
i cant stay like this i want to give up on all this but
theres just a small part of me that still has hope. i think
i like you too much. its not possible for me to stop.
i find myself lieng to myself. trying to say to myself
that i have no chance and i just dont like you or cant
like you anymore. the thing is i do like you and i want
to like you. i just want to like the real you. i cant stop
thinking about what happened before.. what we used
to be? i guess. i dont get it. what happened. i regret
what i said. maybe if i would have said something else
this whole ending would have turned out happier. im
just wishing it will turn out happy in the end.. <|3
whatever i just felt like sharing it. it sucks but oh well.
youre the type of guy that everyone loves
because really who couldnt love you. its just
theres something about you that im really
attracted to i guess? but im realizing the part
im really attracted to is the fakest part of
you. i just wished you were yourself. then i
would really like you? i think.. not the fake
part of you. i wish you were honest. then you
wouldnt hurt me like you do. whatever. things
cant always be my way i guess? they never
are. i just wish you were yourself. then i could
see the real you and like you for you. the part that
hurts me the most is that i feel like i cant tell you how
i feel. i dont know what youre gonna do.. i dont want
this to end. i know its fake. i know it is. but i just dont
want to stop. im trying to convince myself maybe you
have feelings for me back. i know its no use. but maybe
if i just try to believe it i will.. whatever i dont know.
why do you havta be like this. the thing is you dont have
any idea what pain your causing me.. why do you havta
act like this. why are you so fake. if you were just yourself
so many people would like you for the way you really are
the REAL you. not the one who trys to impress people or
lies all the time. i love who you are.. i just wish you
understood that. but its no use. i dont know anymore
i cant stay like this i want to give up on all this but
theres just a small part of me that still has hope. i think
i like you too much. its not possible for me to stop.
i find myself lieng to myself. trying to say to myself
that i have no chance and i just dont like you or cant
like you anymore. the thing is i do like you and i want
to like you. i just want to like the real you. i cant stop
thinking about what happened before.. what we used
to be? i guess. i dont get it. what happened. i regret
what i said. maybe if i would have said something else
this whole ending would have turned out happier. im
just wishing it will turn out happy in the end.. <|3