I'm Yours, Forever - Part 2
Title : I'm Yours, Forever
Author : Michi
Pairing : Yunjae
Genre : Angst, Drama
Length : 2/2
Warning : Un-beta, Full of Grammar mistake.. An abusive relationship..
Disclaimer : I don't own the boys, but i loveee them very much...>< And i don't own the plot, is from the manga i read
Summary : You never knew what is actually behind those cool figure, people even called him, "The Lonely Prince". But his true self was beyond that image, no one knew that except me.. The ordinary guy, Kim Jaejoong.. Out of curiosity i approached him, when nobody have a guts to do that..
We became buddies, but soon our relationship turn into lovers.. Everyone start to see the new Jung Yunho, and had brave enough to approach him, eventually Yunho start to open up for others..
Slowly for sure, our relationship is falling apart..
But one things that I know for sure, Whatever he did, even if its hurt me..
I will Always forgive him..
This story I dedicated to my dearest friend ssarena, that always help me whenever I need it..
Thanks a lot for all your help and support, sis..^o^
Lovvee uuu...>o<
Part 1
"Jaejoong, opened the door!!! Please, open the door Jae!!" Scream Yunho behind the door.
'Why.. Why.. I don't understand at all.. Are all the forgiveness that I gave all this time, was not enough for you? And you asked a forgiveness once more?' I screaming in my head.
"Jae.. Forgive me. I'm Sorry, Please open up the door!" He yelled and knock on the door harder.
"I need you, Jae..hiccss.." Yunho said pleading.
I could hear his sobs.. You'd be crying right now, Yun.. Even if my heart hurt to hear you cry, but my brain forbid me from open up the door.. Because I know, if I open up, I will have a soft spot for your tears.. I will embraced you and say 'Everything will be alright.. Don't cry, I forgive you, Yun..' Like I always do.
But not this time.. I can't Yunho.. I can't forgive you like I always do..
"I really don't want to leave you. I don't want you to leave me either. Please, Jaee.." He said sobbing really hard and punch the door numerous times.
'No..No..No.. You are a liar!!! You always say how much you need me. Last night you even said, "Please stay by my side, forever." But now, you want to leave me with that girl! But you don't want to let me go! You are a selfish bastard!!" I screaming in my head and tears streaming in my cheek uncontrolled.
"Forgive me.. Pleaseee, don't say we have to end this, Jaejoonggg!!" He scream and start to punch the door violently.
"Jae.. Answer me!! I'm begging you. Let me see your face, pleasee!!" He said sobbing.
'Go back!! Just go back to her!! I don't need you anymore! I don't want to see your face! Go back Yunho, please!!' I pleading in my heart. I can't restrain my sobs anymore, I cry and sobbing uncontrolled.
"Jaejoong, are you crying? Please don't cry.." He said caringly.
'What do you care!'' I scream in my head.
I never cry before, even as much as you hurt me over and over, but I never cry even once. I never hate you. All because I know, you're a sweet guy that didn't have a heart to reject someone invitation and makes them sad. And I know, even if how much you flirt with every girls, you will always comeback to me. But now I know, you will never come back to me anymore..
Flashback
"Hahaha.. You know Jaejoong, Yunho said I don't need anyone else, because I already have Sun Yee. Isn't that so sweet?" She said giggled and wrap her hand in Yunho arm, and I can see a glimpse of her sly smile at the corner of her lips.
"And two days ago, I'm so happy when he suddenly asked me about married. Well, we already discussed it and decided that we'll do it after graduation." She giggled more and leaned her head on Yunho shoulder.
'After graduate? I can't believe what I heard.. Is that mean Yunho want to married her? It's not just a fling like all the girl he usually dating? You serious with her and want to leave me, Yun?'
"I'm so happy. We even already looked for an apartment where we can move together after married." She said and snuggled her head to Yunho chest.
"That's why, Please don't meet Yunho anymore. You would break up with him, don't you?" She said firmly and smile cunningly to me.
End Flashback
If I think carefully, Yunho changes so much recently. He start to declined every invitations, he even ignoring they call.
'Is that because of her? You.. you like her that much? I'm nothing compared to her, Yun?' I questioning myself.
"I'm sorry, So sorry Jae.. I don't want to end like this.." He said sobbing. There were a silent after that. He didn't say anything and I can't heard his sobs anymore. All I can heard was the sound of his footsteps that being further away.
'Sorry is not always can resolve a problem, Yun.. Your 'Sorry' word is not enough anymore.. You don't have a heart to hurt others people, but you have a heart to hurt me deply..' I said mindly, and tears streaming in my cheek endlessly.
I just can't take it anymore.. I let you go, Yun.. I hope you find your happiness with her..
0-oooo-0
"Can we meet at the park? There is something I want to talk to you." That was Sun Yee message one week after we meet at the restaurant.
Our meeting at the Park more convince me, that Yunho didn't have any feeling left for me..
"You know, we already leaving together now. Yunho said, whatever happen he wants to live with me. He's so romantic, don't you think?" She said and gigled.
"He clinging to me all the time. Hahaha.. I wonder, could he live without me by his side?" She said dreamingly.
"But he keeps worried about you. He's such a kind guy."
"But I hate when he's worried about you.." She said in a low and threatening voices.
"You're a nuisance.."
After that meeting, She keeps harrassing me.. I keeps having a prank call, or a threat message...
"Let go of Yunho!!!"
"Don't take advantages from Yunho kidness, bitch!!"
"He feel sorry for you.. He just pity on you, you know that!!"
"He feel indebted to you, thats why he can't scream at you face and said 'GO AWAY'"
"You're a nuisance"
That's were all her threat message in my inbox..
How much I tried to leave Yunho, it seems not enough for her. She keeps disturbed and threatening me. I already walked away when Yunho try to come near me. I pretend didn't heard when Yunho called my name. I pretend didn't see him, when he obviously sit across me. I turn off my phone, so he can't call me. I pretend not at home, when he is come to my place. What should I do more so you stop harrassing me!!
But she still keep abused me. She hates me more day by day.. She keep leave messages in my mail box. Each days more violently and harsh..
"WHY? WHY? Why are you still seeing him? Why Yunho still thinking about you?"
"Yunho start to act weird. He becoming starnger everyday. It's all because of you!! You're a nuisance..!!
"What are you trying to do?? Let go Yunho!! He became weird and didn't want to talk to me!! It's all your fault, slut!! You're a nuisance!!"
0-oooo-0
"Nee Jae.. Do you remember the first time you spoke to me. I never knew there was a kind hearted guy like you. It makes me so happy. It was the first time I feel happy since I come back to Korea.." He said softly from behind the door.
He always come to my apartment everyday. Even thought I never want to meet or talk to him, but he keeps talking to me from behind the close door, and I will always sit at the front door and listening to all his talk quietly.
"Finally, I feel going to like this town at that moment. I enjoyed going to college. I eagerly to meet you, I wanted to see your smile everyday. I want you to scold me everytime I cry, because after that you will hug me and encouraged me, show me how much you cared.." He said and start to sobbing.
"Time after time, I couldn't help it but want to touch you.. Kiss you and feel you. I want you more than a friend.." He said and stop for a moment.
I don't know what I'm being right now, if I never meet you.. I don't know what will happen to me, if you aren't with me anymore..hicss.." He said and his sobbing became more louder.
"Jae.. you really didn't want to see me.."
"Are you okay with this, Jae? Are you okay not to see me anymore? You can live without me huh.?" He said and start to punch the door numerous times.
"Heh.. I see. So that how it is?" He said chuckled.
"I will always love you, Jaejoong.." That was his last word before he leave my place and never come back again.
0-oooo-0
I feel tired.. I'm tired loving him.. I'm tired to always being hurt by him.. I'm tired to wait for him to changed.. I'm tired to run away from him.. I need to end this.. We need to end this..
I guess you feel the same way.. That's why you came to my apartment that night..
~o~
I feel so anxious today, I didn't see Yunho at all. He didn't message me, or come to my apartment, like he usually do. Perhaps it is the best way.. Perhaps he already let me go. 'So this is a goodbye, right Yun..''
Raining is pouring all day.. I don't know why, as if the weather can feel my pain..
I eagerly open the door, since it's really cold outside..
When I open the door, suddenly someone push me inside the room. Accidentally, my head hit a table. I can feel blood running from my head. Slowly, I loss my concious. I thought it was a dream, but I think I saw Yunho face above me. He's crying badly. I call his name softly, 'Yun' and try to reach his face, but he grabbed my pants and pull it instead.
"What are you doing, Yun?" I asked dumbfounded.
'I don't want to do it anymore! I don't want to hurt Sun Yee, you and damaged my heart that already broke..' I scream in my head.
"NO!! Don't!!" I scream and used my last strength to push him off me and crawled away from him. But he grabbed my leg and my left arm. He yanked my pants off and pull me near him. Harshly he slide his cock raw inside my hole and ravished my body violently.
I have no strength left, and slowly I loss my concious. But I can heard Yunho keep screaming my name over and over. And I can feel his tears drops to my shirt. The lasting I remember, he kiss my lips and say the word that I've been miss so much, "I love you."
0-oooo-0
'Yun.. Are you crying again? I heard a sobs, Is that you, Yun..?'
'Yun, is that your hand that caressing my cheek? You're hand are so warm..'
'I'm so cold, it's so dark in here..''
'I need you Yunho..'
"Jae.. Jaejoong.. Wake up!! Can you heard me?" A man say softly.
I start to try open my eyes after I heard that familiar voices. My eyelid so heavy, as seems it didn't want to open up anymore.
"Jaeeee.. Please wake up! You scary me to death! Please.. I'm begging you.." That man pleading and I can feel tears fall down to my skin.
I pull my strength and open my eyes, to see my dearest one.
"Chunniee.." I said softly and smile weakly to him.
"Ohhh.. Dear god, Jae.. Thank god!!" He said and tears streaming down in his cheek.
"Chun.." I said weakly and try to reach his cheek that was in tears.
"Noo.. no Jae.. Don't move your arms from that position." He said and look terrified.
'What happen Chun? Why did you look at me like that? Why I feel so limp? Why my eyes seems so blur? I can't see your face properly.. WHY?'
"Youu.. What have you done, asshole!!" Yoochun said, his face changed from a warmly expression to raged expression. Suddenly he stand up, and grab a man that standing on the door.
'Who is that? Why his hand dripping a blood? Is he hurt?'
"Are you insane?" Yoochun said and punch that man on his jaw.
He crouch on the floor. He looks so pitiful. He looks familiar. 'Is that you, Yun..?'
He looks mess, his hair dripping water and his clothes full of blood. 'Are you hurt Yun? What happen to you?'
"I don't know what happen in your life, and I don't care! But don't dragged my friends to your miserable life!! You're insane!!" Yoochun scream on top of his lungs.
"But.. but.. Jae was going to leave me..hicss.." Yunho said soobing na d put his hand on his head.
"Sun Yee keeps pleading to me many times. She asked me to break up with Jae! But it's impossible for me to do that! I can't loss Jae!! No, I don't want that to happen! I can't even imagine myself doing that! So she asked me to meet Jae and threaten that she will kill herself. So I don't have any choice.." Yunho stop abruptly, and then he suddenly stood up and walked around in a circle.
"Sun Yee said everyone will leave me, just like me mom and others. They just using me, they just attract to my appereance. When they eventually knew me, they will leave me just like mom.. Sun Yee said, Jae just like everybody else. She said she was different, she will never leave me alone. She will accompany me forever.." Yunho said and suddenly he start to laugh uncontrolled.
"At first I thought it was riddicilous. Jae will never leave me alone, right? He needs me as much as I need him. Butt.. but.. after that, Jae won't see me anymore. He even didn't want to look at me and talk to me. I..I..I don't know what should I do!! I don't want to loose him like mom!! NO!! NEVER!! So.. so I thought, if he were going to leave me, I.. I.. would rather KILL HIM by my own hand.." He scream frantically.
"KILL HIM AND MAKE HIM ALL MINE!! IF HE'S GOING TO BE WITH SOMEBODY ELSE AND LEAVE ME ALONE, I RATHER KILL HIM!!!" He scream frantically and start to laugh.
"God dammit!! Then why don't you just break up with that woman!! You love Jae so much, until you can't even imagine that he is with somebody else, because you want him to be just yours only, right! Jae was thinking the same way! He want you to be only his, not anyone else! But if you kill him, you can't own him anymore! You can't kiss him, touch him, or even see his smile anymore!! If he dies, you will never see him again!! You hear me!!" Yoochun scream and punch Yunho once more.
'No.. No.. Yun.. Yoochun.. don't fighting! Yoochun, don't mad at him anymore!He's already break down, can't you see Chun? My Yunnie, don't cry.. Everything is gonna be alright! When tomorrow comes, We can be together again, just like we used to be.. I'm not going anywhere, I will not leave you, Yun.. As long as you were happy, I would be fine..''
The last thing I can feel was Yunho grabbed my shoulders and sobbing so hard until his tears wetting my shirt. And he whisper endlessly to my ears one word, 'SORRY.'
The colour of the floor were mixed between the white water that pour from the bath tub with the red colour of the blood..
0-oooo-0
Ahh.. I'm sorry guys.. I can't update as fast as I promised you guys.. I don't know what happen, but I lose passion to write this week.. So sorry if the result full of grammer mistake and kinda suck..
Anyway don't worry, I will not let the ending cliff like this.. It will had an epilogue.. The epilogue will explained a little about Yunho problems..^o^
And please don't kill me, coz I'm making Yunho a little bit lunatic in here.. *BOW* I'm so sorry guys, but don't worry it will be happy end, I guess..hehe Well Yunho not that bad don't you think.. He depply in love with Jae, he just having a difficulty to shown his love to Jae..^o^
I hope I can update the epilogue soon..
Commenntts are Lovvedddd Guysss..>< Lots.. Lotsss.. of Love and hugs for all who leave a comments..>o<