It's raining, it's pouring; I see lj hos a-whoring ...

[michellio]

No, but it really is raining. And it was so sunny earlier!! And nice!! Lindsey and I went to On the Border and sat on the patio and I drank a strawberry dacquiri. It was disappointing. But fun anyway. What else? Oh yeah, Ben. Wtf is this

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woah

[michellio]

You were very honest, and very fair, and I don't think I can tell you how much I appreciate that. Really. I've always thought that this could be ended so quickly if we could both just be honest and fair. You're wrong when you say that you're the one who decided to end the feud between us though. I was never feuding with you. I never hated you the way I thought you hated me. It sounds stupid (and it kind of makes me feel stupid) but whenever I read things in your journal like how happy you were with John, him buying you a ring, you getting a super cool job, doing well on tests, I felt happy for you. I couldn't help it. I get happy for people when good things happen to them. And when I apologized for the things I had done to upset you back in January or February or whenever it was, I really and truly meant it. I'm very happy that now we can put all this behind us and not have it bringing either one of us down anymore. So, thank you.

Mmmkay. I'm *very* sorry about how out of proportion the comments from spatulaofdoom got. I didn't write them, nor do I know who did, but I really didn't know things were getting so crazy. I feel kind of responsible, I guess mainly because I laughed at the comments instead of doing something more mature or productive (although I don't know what I could have done). I'm sorry you had to go through that with your friends and I hope everything works out and is back to normal. I'm sorry for John, and I don't really know him at all, never met him, but he seemed like an okay kid whenever I saw him at Rhodes back in the day. I certainly never thought he was the kind of guy who would hit a girl. I don't believe that now, either. I think it's precious that you guys are so happy together.

I was never mad at you for defending Brent. It was good of you to do that for him, even if I don't believe he deserved it. When you left that anonymous post in my journal in October, I didn't know it was from you. I wish I'd figured it out sooner, because when I went back and read it just recently, I realized that a lot of the things you said in the comment weren't mean at all. It's just hard to know how to respond to something like that, when you're in as much pain as I was, and when you don't even know who's trying to tell you something. I'm still not exactly sure what happened between me and Brent, but I guess that's just the way it's going to be - and maybe I'll never know. I'm glad you two are friends. I hope he treats you right, because I'm not the only person to have a relationship with Brent end badly and I don't want it to happen that way with anyone else.

Wow. I'm scared to hit the post comment button. I don't say that to make you feel bad or anything, but Mandy, you really do scare me shitless sometimes. I'm scared this is a joke, a fake apology, or that you're going to read something I wrote and say, "Wow, she really is just as stupid as I always thought she was." But I meant everything I said, and I hope you did too.

yeah

[mandyds]

No, I'm seriously sorry. I'm a female version of Steve Ash- ready to blow at any minute. I think for the good of everyone I'm going to try to tone it down. I really do mean it when I say I'm sorry. Things just spiraled out of control. I know you're not stupid. I never thought you were stupid- in fact I think are very smart- and that response you gave proves it. I am glad you see that I wasn't trying to be mean in it. I get angry very easily, and I hope you don't think that you are the only person who is the target of my rage. I'm a big fan of justice, and in my pursuit of justice I tend to step on folks. And trust me, you aren't the only one who feels the pressure from it. But it's not ok for me to step on people when I get mad. And it's not my responsibility to take out people who don't like the people I like. I'm trying to cut back on the rage. And about Brent.. hmm.. Brent is my buddy but there are some days when I don't know why he is doing what he is doing. The reason I posted anonymously that day about him was because I wanted you to focus solely on the issue instead of the person telling it to you. I was afraid if you knew it was me that you wouldn't take it how I meant for you to take it. That's all.

But no hard feelings. I know it's weird hearing that.

I'm a really really weird girl.

My bad.
-Mandy

Re: yeah

[lynstraine]

HALLELUJAH.

That's all I have to say about that (we'll not discuss Brent).

Re: yeah

[michellio]

(we'll not discuss Brent).

Good plan! Your icon is so so so so precious, by the way. Are they from a show, or a comic or something? I like. Oooh I went to the Naranja cafe, which is where I get milk smoothies and bubble tea here in Denton, last night, and there were some kids (mostly Asian, I think) talking about anime and I thought of you!!!!! =))