Nov 28, 2006 03:47
today was lovely.
I actually felt motivated, the first time all year.
I was early to chemistry.
I did my history and chemistry homework after school.
I was really quite awake, even though I had less than a cup of coffee this morning.
And now I've bought myself a lovely sweater, which I intend to wear every day, or close to it.
I hope that Melissa can work out her problem because it would be wonderful for her if it worked out. If she and him could be together. Perfection. And he baked her cookies today.
Wouldn't it be wonderful if I could find something like that?
I have to be very careful because I think that desperation is starting to set in. And I mustn't let it.
There are only three at the most.
And none of them seem to be going anywhere.
Where is my match? The match to light everything.
Poof, puff of smoke.
Burn the buildings down, firestarter, firestarter.
Burn every single one to win the game, to become the firestarter and win life.
You're the arcenist? pyromaniac? how unexpected and beautiful.