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my misery has culminated in the realization of yesterday:
there are just no good men on uconn's campus. the elite crew of 14,000 undergrads is obsolete in attraction.
i'm done blaming myself, why should i blame myself for not feeling butterflies? it's just boy after boy after boy wearing uconn apparel and a penchant for beer. and that's okay. but i'm looking for a cowboy, in a big way.
now that he's flying out here, it's come to my attention that austin and i are best friends. and if something were to happen, it would just be out of control and maybe a little weird. which is probably why it hasn't (truly) happened thus far. don't get me wrong, i love this man more than life, perhaps. but again, is that my fault? have my hormones subsided and everyone is just my friend?
in other news, i went to my german film class last night and found out that the kid that sat next to me killed himself the day before. delightful. now i have this on my conscience, too- i used to talk about his bad jesus tattoos, and slight smell, and how i hated sitting next to him.
there are just no good men on uconn's campus. the elite crew of 14,000 undergrads is obsolete in attraction.
i'm done blaming myself, why should i blame myself for not feeling butterflies? it's just boy after boy after boy wearing uconn apparel and a penchant for beer. and that's okay. but i'm looking for a cowboy, in a big way.
now that he's flying out here, it's come to my attention that austin and i are best friends. and if something were to happen, it would just be out of control and maybe a little weird. which is probably why it hasn't (truly) happened thus far. don't get me wrong, i love this man more than life, perhaps. but again, is that my fault? have my hormones subsided and everyone is just my friend?
in other news, i went to my german film class last night and found out that the kid that sat next to me killed himself the day before. delightful. now i have this on my conscience, too- i used to talk about his bad jesus tattoos, and slight smell, and how i hated sitting next to him.