Time isn't flying... It's just gone before I realize it...

[michelle94040]

I think about you often. (Yes you, reading this) I smile when I remember things we've done together and silly moments we shared. I wonder how you are and think to myself "I need to set up some time with them!"... And then I blink and the light turns green and I have to put my foot on the gas again. I'm the woman who wakes up in the morning and brews the coffee, gets the kids breakfast and gets them dressed. I drive my daughter to daycare which is a round trip of about 45 minutes. Then I pour my first cup of coffee and walk into my office and start working. If I'm lucky, I find time around 11:00 to make some breakfast and then eat it in front of my computer. My unfinished coffee sits cold nearby. I realize around 3:00 that I have no more meetings and have to make the decision if this is the time I should take to go take a shower or try and catch up on work emails & calls. Or sometimes I make a quick lunch and again eat it in front of my computer. By 4:00 I have to go to Foster City and pick up my daughter. It's a one hour round trip... I'll try to make a social phone-call to my sister while I drive... I'll get home and start doing dishes and making dinner. Sit down to eat with the kids and then usually go back to my laptop to work again. By the kids bedtime, once the kids are down, I usually go to bed myself. Exhausted.

Work owns me. But I miss you. I miss my friends. I miss sleeping until I'm not tired anymore. I have forgotten what it is to feel bored. But I know that I miss seeing you and talking to you. And I want you to know I haven't forgotten you and I'm not ignoring you. I'm just exhausted and rediculously busy. Someday... Someday I will have time again and I will see you and hug you and smile with you. And I hope when that day comes, you won't be too angry with me for being gone so long. ::hugs::