All nighters...

[michelle656]

So I stay up all night, no sleep at all, cramming for my second Calculus III Exam and end up bombing it. I get out of that class with an hour to spare before my next class. Study for that hour for my second Anthropology Exam and end up with a pretty good feeling about that. So what's the lesson here? Don't pull all nighters because I will fail anyway? Drop from being a math major? Switch to anthropology major? No fucking clue, but I just wasted what could have been a good night's sleep studying for something I failed anyway. And I'm really upset...I'm going to freaking lose my 100% Bright Futures if I don't get at least three As and that's only if I can end up with a C in Calculus III, which I don't see happening! And I couldn't withdraw from the course or else I would lose my other funding! So I'm going to have to end up retaking my math course. And that's really bad. I used to be top notch in math. I don't know what happened! And I don't know what to do! I had a freaking American History midterm yesterday also to top it all off so I could study beforehand. I even felt pretty good about that exam too. And that's sad. I feel better about my history grade rather than my math grade? And my weekend was too freaking full of events even though I didn't even want to go to half of them, but I had to because some people are too consumed with their own one exam to take other people and their exams into consideration and freakin' A man. I just want to grab them and shake some sense into them. Everybody has exams. Everybody is entitled to their own life. I do a lot of shit, but over half the time I don't get any freakin' recognition. I'm just peeved. Really peeved.

Sorry for rambling, but I feel slightly better.