To Smile when you want to Scream.
I wish I could say that everything's okay but it's not.
In the past, I remember being able to tell friends about what's the matter with me but unfortunately, due to certain unpleasant experiences, it's hard for me to trust people now. Some that have said are my friends have ended up stabbing me in the back. The thing is, they don't know that I know. But I do know.
Lately, I've been having many issues. But I can't share them.
And our extended family is no help at all.
We already made the mistake of telling one person of our personal situation, in what was supposed to be in confidence, and that person ended up telling everybody else in the family. So now, when she calls and asks us how's everything, we tell her that everything's fine.
I really want to explode and yell out to the 4 four points of the Earth but...
It's hard to keep it in. It's not easy.
I'm the type of person that likes talking things out but I'm also aware that I can't tell just anybody.
You know what it is to go out and turn on the smile especially when you don't feel like turning it on?
To pretend everything's alright when it's not alright?