doesnt' come easy

[miche_nova]

It's like making three steps forward, then falling two steps backwards..

trying hard to make progress..
And with the changes i've been making; [quit smoking, eating healthy, exercise, etc;]-
I did make some good progress in the short time -
~sleeping better/ [goodbye insomina!]..
~have lots more energy/ [hello getting-more-work-done!]

On the downside - [feeling down, having urge to get my hands on some cigs]..
it's like I feel I need something to keep bad thoughts & feelings away..
but i'm getting support from H.. because without the encouragement, i'd be saying 'fuck it'.. and smoke my life away...

but i'm hanging on, and pushing foward..
even if it feels like pushing a large mighty rock..
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*This morning I had a Banana/Coffee Protein Smoothie*
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*Once in awhile, these creatures come along..
*H found a caribbean hermit crab while jogging yesterday..
I now have him in a small aquarium and feeding him fruits..
Might put him together with Dino [the iguana]-
I call him crabby paddy.