anti-heroine
I disappointed three people today. All of them close to me. One I promised I'd call before a certain time. The second I said I'll catch up with for a drink later. The third I said I'd go clubbing with and give a lift to a few hours ago.
I didn't do any of those because I worked overtime and, save for one, completely forgot about the other two.
Most people are a mess at work if they've got some emotional issues to deal with. I'm the opposite in that I can easily set aside all that stuff no matter how they affect me. As for my friends, I always think they'll understand when I cancel on engagements for work. But I've just discovered that I'm not really a good friend if I only fit them 'around' my work schedule regularly.
What I've noticed about LJ is that most people here write about how they made the right decisions, said the right things or like a Superman, managed to save the day. I've always wanted to write about how I've been ripped off and never had the guts to say anything back, the day I stupidly spilt coffee over my skirt, the time when my bedroom was in such a mess I was afraid to go in it but most of all, the times when I make ill-thought decisions regarding my relationships with those I care for.
Work is like an addictive drug to me. While people shirk away from getting more responsibilities, I gladly welcome them. While most people complain about long hours, I do them not because I have to but because I want to.
I feel so bad that I've let my friends down. True friendship is so hard to find these days and here I am neglecting the few that I've got.
The worst part is that I don't like saying 'sorry' because the word seems so empty when I should know better. The question is, how far will I go to succeed? And will I have any friends left to share my success with then?
I didn't do any of those because I worked overtime and, save for one, completely forgot about the other two.
Most people are a mess at work if they've got some emotional issues to deal with. I'm the opposite in that I can easily set aside all that stuff no matter how they affect me. As for my friends, I always think they'll understand when I cancel on engagements for work. But I've just discovered that I'm not really a good friend if I only fit them 'around' my work schedule regularly.
What I've noticed about LJ is that most people here write about how they made the right decisions, said the right things or like a Superman, managed to save the day. I've always wanted to write about how I've been ripped off and never had the guts to say anything back, the day I stupidly spilt coffee over my skirt, the time when my bedroom was in such a mess I was afraid to go in it but most of all, the times when I make ill-thought decisions regarding my relationships with those I care for.
Work is like an addictive drug to me. While people shirk away from getting more responsibilities, I gladly welcome them. While most people complain about long hours, I do them not because I have to but because I want to.
I feel so bad that I've let my friends down. True friendship is so hard to find these days and here I am neglecting the few that I've got.
The worst part is that I don't like saying 'sorry' because the word seems so empty when I should know better. The question is, how far will I go to succeed? And will I have any friends left to share my success with then?