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i can't sleep. i hate it when i can't sleep. just laying here toss and turning and fidgeting and never getting all the way comfortable. how can i be so tired yet feel like i have so much energy? it is a really weird feeling...very annoying.
i think it is because of my meds, but maybe it is just because i have a million thoughts swirling around in my head right now.
here is my stream of consciousness:
- i can't believe i got an A- in my environmental geology class i took for the summer, i didn't even do all the assignments, and the ones i did do i didn't work hard at all...
- i need to fix my schedule for next semester...i have to drop the history that it turns out i didn't need and add Spanish 201
- the math placement test
- Greece and how amazing it is going to be
- Greece and how i am nervous to do missions work in a big city
- peyton and how he is doing
- what patrick is up to at the beach
- seminary application and who i should get as references
- how pasty white mom's legs were
- yari and i's trip to colorado
- something she said in a myspace survey that made me wonder if she is talking to will again, and if so, why didn't she tell me
- how much better i have felt lately
- snowbird and things the kids said there
- the worries amie shared with me about the greece trip and my prayers for her
- ben peebles
- will cervarich
- old times
- the appt in annandale
- wishing that my legs didn't feel so antsy
- if i have enough money
- how i need to read my bible more and not be neglectful of my quiet time
- wondering why i grow closer to god during times of trouble...i think it is because during those times i am seeking answers to specific questions such as why something happened and what i was supposed to learn from it and how i can go about healing. but when i am feeling good i feel like my questions become more vague and more emotion based rather than questions that i can really study up on...i don't know if that is clear. i want to grow in faith all the time, not just when i am hurting...
- prayers for the woman i will marry one day and that my eyes and heart will be open when i meet her. prayers that she is seeking god's will for her life.
- that i hope my grandma feels better.
- what it would be like to be the pastor of a church
- people that have wronged me and how i need to let that go.
- how great it is going to be on family vacation and i hope brody, steven, and his wife will get to come.
- i can't wait to see tucker.
- who i will be rooming with in Greece.
- how steph anderson is doing and wondering if she is feeling better.
- reminding me of my eye appt tomorrow at 9am
- thinking of my friends bday which is the 20th
- thinking of how that is one day before i leave to go to greece
- wondering if mari and alba will come up for a day to stay here before yari and i go to see erica
- that i need to wrap nate's bday gift
- that i will be in greece on nate's bday so i need to send a card early.
- that i need to email erica and get her addy at her new house
for real i could go on and on but its getting stupid lol...i def have to talk to the doc about this cause i have never had a problem falling asleep before...it is frustrating.
to whom it concerns:
thanks for e-mailing me back.
i didn't think you were going to.
i am glad the white flag is being flown by both of us.
lets try to keep it that way : ) ...
Michael