The Beginning of Tree City Festival Weekend
Well I have made the trip home to Baxley for the weekend festivities. This weekend in April there is the Tree City Festival back home. This even is attended by people from places all over the country. In my opinion it is just an excuse for people to get drunk in a public place and nobody makes a big deal out of it. The other night Kimberly and I were on the phone and we decided that we were renaming it the “Baxley Drunk Fest.” This is only the second time that I have attended this, the first time being in 2003. So this should be interesting to see just how much I can get away from. Being in such a small town where everyone knows you it is easy to get away with mostly anything. For some reason I have been really excited about this weekend for some time now, not sure why though. Usually when I come home to Baxley it is because I have business to take care of while I am here, but this time it is just a way to get away from school for a couple of days. Also my friend, Jaime, has a birthday on the ninth of this month and she wants all of her close friends to attend the street dance tomorrow night to help her celebrate. Basically we are going to start drinking early and continue until we pass out. But of course I was trashed last weekend at Belinda’s. Probably drunker than I realized but talking on the phone to a certain person I have learned that I was way intoxicated and was saying everything I was thinking. Although it was only good things, well it could have been it the plan would have been carried out between the person on the other end of the phone and me. That was a fun time last weekend and it made me realized that I have some excellent friends at SCAD. I have really been fortunate to gather around caring people and some that I want to remain friends with for life. They inspire me and also they are there to listen to my problems. I am sure that without a few of them I would have gone crazy during my last rough spell. In mentioning my rough spell, I would like to say that I am officially over that person, finally. You know it takes a while to get over someone that has attached themselves so close to you. Also I had attached myself extremely closely to them as well. You know you think you meet the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with and then something happens. At that point and time you think it couldn’t be happening, that life must be ending; how are you going to keep going on. But then it hits you, there are other opportunities out there and maybe this is happening for a good cause. You know, maybe we were too serious and this was a wake-up call to let us know that it was not going to work out. There are way too many people in this world and maybe the right person is one its way. But the other day at lunch I was sitting outside on my roof and I had a though about the past relationship and decided that it was time to release all these thoughts. I then decided to close my eyes and take a really deep breath. So in taking this breath I thought about every possible thought that had been bothering me. And I held my mouth closed as long as I could, finally I released. This was the best feeling that had gone through my body in a long time. I can honestly say that I felt all these feeling and build up tension out. It was amazing how much better I felt after that and I was full of energy and new thoughts about my life. It is weird how emotions just click and new thoughts fill the space where the old ones once lingered. Tomorrow is going to be exciting, I am sure there will be an extremely long and detailed journal about all the events that occur.