The sun feels so good....
The first day of my weekend has been so relaxing. I have been in absolutely no way productive. I started out as usual with Roeco waking me up at 8:00am. I cooked breakfast and then headed onto the roof of my apartment to get sun on my body. This past Sunday a woman's mother from Baxley passed away. Mrs. Hilda lived in Savannah and always stopped to talk to speak to me if she was to see me outside exiting or entering the apartment. After I heard the news all I could think about was the numerous occasions that we spoke to each other, or the times that I can remember her cooking lunch for me. I used to work with her Daughter and Son-in-Law at their Blueberry Plant in Baxley. She was a sweet lady and I can only think of nice things to say about her. I have felt guilty because of not being able to make it to any of the funeral services. Mainly because one was in Savannah, which I had class during that time and then other was in Baxley, a little too far to drive and have to go to school. So today they were outside at her sister Kathy's house planting flowers. So as I was laying on my roof I decided it was time for me to get up and walk over to give my condolences. As I walked up the first thing that Dorothy said was "She always said , I don't know where my little buddy is, I have not saw him in a few days." That made me almost cry because I really looked forward to seeing Hilda ride by and stop. So now there is a missing person on this street, I will never get to see her car ride down this street to check on her apartments that she owns right beside mine. Time is extremely precious and we all take it for granite. I can definitely say I have learned that in the past four years. After the passing of my grandmother, this made me realize that we never know what tomorrow will be like. So you have to cherish every moment and take tons of pictures to help preserve special times. Because once they are gone, pictures are the only reference point you have to regain memories. It is still hard for me to visit my grandmother's grave just because so many emotions and feelings start to run through my head. I like to just be able to sit here and think back on the good times, the times that meant so much to me. It is just really hard to think that people can exit your life so quickly, and there is nothing you can do about it. Not only does this apply to family, but also relationships. One moment the person you think you are going to spend the rest of your life with is right beside you. The next moment something has taken them away from you, either their family or another person. It is just tough to live in the world we do. Besides the normal everyday personal stuff we deal with, then we have so many other things to have to grasp and accept. As I told my friend Jaime, "If we didn't have stress and never-ending bills, we would not know what to do with our lives." So speaking of bills that was my quote of the day. Being a college student and having freedom to run and spend money at all these places really catches up with you. I have been fortunate to be able to do as I please, but I have also realized that it is best to be cautious with what money you have. Things come up all the time that are unexpected and it is best to just save as much as you can to prepare for these unfortunate events.