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Why is it this so hard? Seriously. Aside from the laughter of that question being a classic Jan That's what SHE said moment...why the heck is it so hard to keep my journal updated? I'm so terrible at posting entries! I'm horrible at commenting! I feel awful! I hope all is well with everyone! I'm doing pretty good! I'm kind of excited actually! I'm like about 98 percent sure that I'm going to beauty school now! I finished my first year of college in May, but I've been so interested in cosmetology (again) where I feel like I better sign up before the interest is gone. I wanted to be a "hair dresser" back in junior/senior year of high school. I planned on taking a year off before signing up and within that time decided that beauty school just wasn't for me. BUT, yes there's a BUT-within the last year, I've started to become extremely interested in it again. I feel like this is really my calling. I'm a little more confident in myself and feel like I'll be great at it! The thing that I'm going to miss about going to college is my English classes because I love writing so much and I was good at it. I'm pretty sure I impressed my instructor with every writing assignment. I'm really going to miss that. With that being said, I feel like beauty school is going to be the best decision I've made. There are a couple of thoughts that I need to consider such as if I'm going to be able to keep my job or not. Going to beauty school is a full-time commitment. They DO have part-time classes, but I really wouldn't want to be there for more than a year. If I go full-time, I believe it'd be an 8 to 4 day or 9 to 5. I'm not quite sure. If that's the case, that'd be great because I should be able to just work a 5 to midnight shift, or a 6 to midnight. I don't think I can ever quit that place because It has a lot of benefits. Anyways, that's where I'm at with that! :) I've listened and really considered all of the advice I've gotten, but when it came down to this 98 percent decision, it was my sister who really helped my with my decision. Her opinions and thoughts probably mean the most to me. No offense to any of my friends, but I want her to be proud of me. Is that weird? I don't even really care about my parents thoughts right now, it's mainly my sister's. Anyways, I thought that my sister would've not supported my beauty school decision, so I didn't even tell her about it because It was just in my mind that I would go back to college. Until last night. I talked to her for a while and told her a huge problem I had at work and explained how, at the time (things are a lot better NOW), I was thinking about quitting, getting a night time job waitressing and just going to beauty school. That's how much I wanted to quit. So anyways, that's how we got on the subject of beauty school and i was expecting her to tell me that it'd be a bad idea and that I should just finish my 4-year degree in something I have the UN-slightest clue as to what I'm going for. But NO! She surprised me with telling me that she thinks I should go. She told me that she was pretty surprised a few years ago when I told her that I WASN'T gonna go. Even though she supports me getting a 4-year degree, she thinks that beauty school is more up my alley than an English teacher, which is what I've been breifly considering. I'm at a moment right now in life where I want to be more than just a number. I want to have an importance in life, which is what I DON'T have right now. I feel like I'd be a great teacher. I would love having kids feel like they could talk to me if they had a problem with writing. The thing about that is I don't think I could do all of the schooling to BE a teacher. And if I can't handle GOING to school to be a profession where you're IN school for NINE months a year, then that's probably not the career for me. Right? Anyways....that's a little update on what's going on in Saraland! :)