Nov 13, 2004 22:42
oh man,
life is so fucking crazy. everyday i think about what ive done to deserve whatever it is im encountering in my life. im a strong believer of karma. naturally whenever something bad happens or something doesnt work out the way i had hopped i try to think of things that i did that may have been wrong which would lead me to an explanation for that poor outcome. i like to think that i dont do too many bad things so its never too hard to think of what i couldve done different to have changed that outcome.
i use a similar thought process for good things happening and good outcomes.
everyday i ask myself what i did to deserve such a wonderful, smart, beautiful, sweet, amazing person like elizabeth d. in my life.
today, when i got home from work she was at work and wasnt getting out for a long time. well i walk into the apartment to find half a stack of post-it notes plastered up on the walls all over the apartment!
shes nice to me and makes me happy. i can only hope i make her half as happy as she makes me all the time. isnt it something like 3 month after you start going out you're supposed to lose all that affection for eachother and things start to get routine? things start to lose their novelty? i dont know anything about that. everyday liz and i are together i feel thankful and it still feels brandew somehow. it really is amazing. who wouldve ever thought this would be me?
i dont know.
love,
michael c poulin.