Knowing me.

[michaelapaige]

To be truthful, im an odd girl. I don't know if that's only me who thinks that I am, or if it's everyone around me who also thinks this as well. Im not sure when I started to see myself like this, or even if I truely think it. Because I guess you can say that I do not truely know myself at all. I know that i've been told that im a nice girl, and sometimes I begin to think that it's true, but other times I begin to think that maybe that image is false. I have green eyes, but sometimes I wonder if they are more brown then green or more green then brown. I dont even know my own image. Too me, Im not pretty but im not ugly either, Im not cute but im not scary. I dont know what words I should use to describe myself, and maybe that's how it is for everyone else. I know im not the only one who struggles to find words that descirbe themselves, and maybe that's how modesty is shown throughout the world, i don't know. I guess sometimes it takes a special person to show you who you really are, and I guess, so far, I've learned that I like to smile. I know it does not describe a personality trait but I've began to smile much more then I ever have, and it took a person to show me how to really smile.

I once told a friend that he needs to look at the small things, and see the things as something important rather than something meaningless. And now im wondering if those were the right words to tell him. Because I know I don't always look at the small details, I know that I dont always respect the tiny little things I've come to love. But I do know that they are there.

I guess noticing the small things will become the words I need to describe myself. And I hope that I will be able to come up with an accurate desription of who I truely am, and I hope that I come to love all those little things with all my heart.

Happy Valentines Day.

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