Sep 16, 2003 23:26
Sometimes Colin's anger gets me scared. I mean he is very nice, of course, but sometimes his anger gets out of control. Tonight I was sitting on the wooden floor, coloring in my Whinnie the Pooh coloring book, when all of the sudden he came over and broke all my crayons. :[ I did not understand. I colored in between the lines and everything. He kicked my coloring book and I think it landed under the sofa but my fat fingers ( he calls them that ) are too fat to reach under the sofa.
Sometimes I get depressed and I keep telling Colin to stop treating me like this, I don't think he understands though. Sometimes I sit in my room and cry. Those nights are usually when i've eaten only a slice of cheese. I feel hungry and worn out. I don't know what to do anymore. He treats me like an animal. I do not like that.
I was walking down the street and all of the sudden Cameron Diaz stopped me and said she wish I died and that I was a sad ugly black man. I do not understand. She called me TUBBY. What does that mean? Is that another word for FAT? I am confused. I'm lost and I feel like crying.