Apr 04, 2005 22:29
Hmmm wow ANOTHER one of these stupid posts lol.
Once again, omg is this the third time? I think I'm going to attempt being bisexual.
Why you ask? Too many reasons.
I'm just. I dunno. I don't show it, or talk about it. But deep down I'm so lonely, I ache, and I cry. Not the kind of, OH I NEED A BF, kind of lonely. Lonely for people. Lonely like, you dont know if anyone cares. Lonely, to the point you're drawing yourself away people, and they have done the same to you. Lonely, when you need someone. Someone there for you, to talk to, to hold, to kiss, to have fun with, to laugh with. Sure it sounds corny and what not. But I need someone like that. I don't know why, I just have always needed someone like that. And I guess I havn't been blessed enough to have someone. I mean. Every guy I've liked, never liked me. Every guy that has like me. Is Either Ryan, Garret or Josh. That speaks for itself. And like it's to the point now, I don't care who it is. As long as I have that person. Yes, I've even considered dating 1 of the 3. But, I just thought I'd get in too much shit with that. I started thinking about girls. I think it would work. If I dated a girl, I could have someone like that. It may nto be a guy, but it's someone. And seuality is'nt everything! I could have someone who would spend time with me, care fo rme, talk with me, laugh with me, everything. It seems so, right in a sense. And I know there is someone that likes me out there. But they're not a guy. There's quite a few girls that do. Gosh if there are any guys that like me speak up! Haha. But thats only a dream for me. So yeah, thats my decisioin I guess. Say what you will. I just had to let it out.
-Michael