Self-Esteem
Well, as most of you know, Mr. Me here has horrible self esteem. If you haven't now you do. I think I'm the most ugly, hideous person ever. Yet everyone insists on telling me I'm hot, cute, adorable, and gorgeous. As people have noticed, I have recently changed very greatly in personality, looks, interests, attitude, etc... I was thinking today. I'm too pressured. I was thinking just WHY I have such low self-esteem. It's the people around me. Have I not noticed, that the guys i hang out with like Chaz, Matt, and Kyle. Happen to be very gorgeous, rich, and full of self-esteem. How does that help someone n a position like me? Not at all. Sure you make think, well people like that would make someone motivated! Not me, it just makes me frown down upon myself. I am to the point where I have no self-esteem. I'm like, changing everything about em, just try and and feel confident with myself. And I guess, being around people like that, who are full of self-esteem, and confidence, and me having so little, makes me strive to be better, yet brings me down at the same time. I don't want to stop hanging out with people. I just honestly don't know how to deal with myself lately. I have lost many of my friends recently. Not necessarily lost them, just drifted a bit far. I have a problem with myself. I can never deal with myself an my own issues. Other people's yeah. But not my own. I always need that someone else there for me. I don't have that anymore. I'm at a time where I'm starting to hate myself, and I don't know what to do.