32 and lonely
A year later and no one has replaced him. I look at him and Tara and wonder why her? She has a big forehead and is a secretary at an oil company...what does she have to offer? For now she might be sucking his dick everyday but that'll stop, it always does.
I still miss him something awful and as each day goes buy I realize that I'm getting older....it'll take a year to get attached with someone else, a year to plan a wedding and a year to try to get pregnant and I'll be 34-35 by then. I'm so sad. So disappointed in the way my love life has ended up. I never had a problem finding someone and I let that loser take my heart.
I've loved two people in my life, Joe and Brian, only those two and when I love, I love with my whole undivided heart. I was so crushed when both of them cheated. I've become so bitter from all of this.
Then I have Chris who is beginning to marry me and be with me again...of course the crazy one wants me! I'm not good enough for the sane ones that are put together.
You know he got a DWI after Wing Fest? I could never be with someone like that.
I remember seeing Brian and thinking...ugh what a fat doof, he's probably a super sweet guy that will worship me! And he did...for a year before he cheated the first time. Then he disrespected me, made me feel stupid and ugly.
I hope I find my future husband soon, I want to love and respect him always as he will do to me, have his sons and have amazing sex at least four times a week. I hope that exists!
I still miss him something awful and as each day goes buy I realize that I'm getting older....it'll take a year to get attached with someone else, a year to plan a wedding and a year to try to get pregnant and I'll be 34-35 by then. I'm so sad. So disappointed in the way my love life has ended up. I never had a problem finding someone and I let that loser take my heart.
I've loved two people in my life, Joe and Brian, only those two and when I love, I love with my whole undivided heart. I was so crushed when both of them cheated. I've become so bitter from all of this.
Then I have Chris who is beginning to marry me and be with me again...of course the crazy one wants me! I'm not good enough for the sane ones that are put together.
You know he got a DWI after Wing Fest? I could never be with someone like that.
I remember seeing Brian and thinking...ugh what a fat doof, he's probably a super sweet guy that will worship me! And he did...for a year before he cheated the first time. Then he disrespected me, made me feel stupid and ugly.
I hope I find my future husband soon, I want to love and respect him always as he will do to me, have his sons and have amazing sex at least four times a week. I hope that exists!