ohh, messy life
my new anti depressants make my dreams be even more crazy things
so i am always asleep, or always wanting to sleep. however, i'm really just always at work. but i only work in the morning tomorrow, but then we practice, then i can sleep a little, but then i work a double on tuesday
shit happens, i need money
the new medicine works by really heavy sedation
about 2 hrs afte ri take it i am miserabley tierd, awake, and unable to sleep
but i guess i have to keep taking it, or we have to up it to a dose that my body dosn't tolerate so i DO sleep when i take it right?
ive been reading about dreams more. i guess dreams in which you fly [with no aide of anything else] it is supposed to be your soul traveling around outside of your body.
well not last night, but the morning before i woke up at about 10 and went back to sleep in my room [i was downstairs] and before going to sleep i stopped down here and talked to mike
well, when i went to sleep, i had this dream that i was just twirling and soaring and spinning above a field. it wasn't even a pretty field just yellow and some rocks and dirt... i don't know where it was, i got the feeling like elkhart/osceola. but i was just there, spinning around. i liked it because it looked like where dinosaurs would have lived. then i woke up, and went back to sleep and dreamed i was sitting outside on a curb and mike came and talked to me, and it was beautiful. i remember thinking in my dream, i'm glad i'm dating this kid.
then i took a nap today, and had this insane series of dreams that started out in the huge mansion house with the secret rooms. it was getting super haunted, so i went to hide in one of my hiding places, and the ghosts found me, and she said "how could you" and i looked down and i was pregnent, so i ran away, and i was outside in this water kissing this man that i don't know who he is, and i said "you can't be real, you're too good, are you a rapist, are you evil? are you dead" and he dissappeard, and i went under water and realized the baby was out of me, and dead so i was in a hospital, and i said, is that my baby? and i pointed to one, but it wasn't but i said i'd take it if i didn't have a mom anyway, but they said no
then i was in a parking lot, the towne and country one in mishawaka, and these black people raped me, and i tried to tell the cops but they didn't believe me, and i kept telling them that i didn't instigate it, but the cop was black and said that i started it all, and as i talked to him i watched his eyes glaze over, and he died
th eend
so i am always asleep, or always wanting to sleep. however, i'm really just always at work. but i only work in the morning tomorrow, but then we practice, then i can sleep a little, but then i work a double on tuesday
shit happens, i need money
the new medicine works by really heavy sedation
about 2 hrs afte ri take it i am miserabley tierd, awake, and unable to sleep
but i guess i have to keep taking it, or we have to up it to a dose that my body dosn't tolerate so i DO sleep when i take it right?
ive been reading about dreams more. i guess dreams in which you fly [with no aide of anything else] it is supposed to be your soul traveling around outside of your body.
well not last night, but the morning before i woke up at about 10 and went back to sleep in my room [i was downstairs] and before going to sleep i stopped down here and talked to mike
well, when i went to sleep, i had this dream that i was just twirling and soaring and spinning above a field. it wasn't even a pretty field just yellow and some rocks and dirt... i don't know where it was, i got the feeling like elkhart/osceola. but i was just there, spinning around. i liked it because it looked like where dinosaurs would have lived. then i woke up, and went back to sleep and dreamed i was sitting outside on a curb and mike came and talked to me, and it was beautiful. i remember thinking in my dream, i'm glad i'm dating this kid.
then i took a nap today, and had this insane series of dreams that started out in the huge mansion house with the secret rooms. it was getting super haunted, so i went to hide in one of my hiding places, and the ghosts found me, and she said "how could you" and i looked down and i was pregnent, so i ran away, and i was outside in this water kissing this man that i don't know who he is, and i said "you can't be real, you're too good, are you a rapist, are you evil? are you dead" and he dissappeard, and i went under water and realized the baby was out of me, and dead so i was in a hospital, and i said, is that my baby? and i pointed to one, but it wasn't but i said i'd take it if i didn't have a mom anyway, but they said no
then i was in a parking lot, the towne and country one in mishawaka, and these black people raped me, and i tried to tell the cops but they didn't believe me, and i kept telling them that i didn't instigate it, but the cop was black and said that i started it all, and as i talked to him i watched his eyes glaze over, and he died
th eend