these words are my diary screaming out loud...

[micchi]

I feel so numb right now. I keep meaning to talk about things more, to write things down and stop bottling up everything. I always seem to fail at it. I have some strange need to be poetic and thoughtful, and I can't seem to just...type it out. To get it out. But at the end of the day, I wonder...what's the point?

Mama is down to 20% kidney function. The doctor said today she would be lucky to make it another four months before a complete shutdown.

She'd be able to get her first dialysis treatment in five months.

It's not fair. It's just fucking not fair.